baju sandingku ready for fitting & family meeting

and I'M FAT!! makkkk....sy sungguh stressed memikirkan possibilities baju tersebut won't fit~ :'( skang ni i rasa takmau makan apa2 dah..dah cukup! posa 4 hari..minum air ja dah...hukhukhuk...

i know i kinda delaying a lot of things nowadays cos of my limited time..but i cancelled my fitting twice already but to cancel it again won't be that nice kan..malu la i nak nanti. just now i recieved an alarming msg saying that IT'S FITTING TIME....aduh!! baik lah...if i dun do it this weekend ntah bila lagi pun tak tau. gosh, i pray for the baju to fit me all nicely * amin*

on another note, fiance's family is coming to discuss about wedding stuffs..and hantar duit hantaran semua...my concern is that, should i be there as well when they come? i kena balik kampung jugak kah?? if dun, would it be too snorty or something? cos seriously my relationship with future in laws are not as tight as other bride to be...no...no..no..bukan kitorang tak baik ka apa ka..it's actually a rule implimented by my family on me not to expose myself to the future family in law too much.

my family is kinda strict on adab2 bertunang and bergaul ni so i can't do anything with that but to obey..so far i have only met my FFIL 3 times..that's it tu pun "undersupervision" of my family...cewahhh...meaning...kita jupa as family! the rest kena tunggu kawen baru la nak kenal2 secara mendalam ka apa ka mak i kata ikot suka..for the time being jangan harap la i nak pi jalan2 sorang2 pi umah FFIL saja2...hmm...sabaaarrr

anyway i'm scared the dress won't fit me!! gila la...i always think negative kan?? ;(


p.s. the sweetest thing about having a loving fiance like mine is that never a single word uttered from him is about my imperfections...Alhamdulillah

p.p.s. arghhhh!! i can't wait to be married!!...and just be done with it!