Schooling so far

Hari ni first day Maryam balik tunjuk hasil art works dia kat sekolah. Actually dah nampak pun cikgu dia gantung semua hasil kerja students kat luar dan dalam sekolah. as a mother, of course la i mencari-cari hasil air tangan anak sendiri kan... the first art work yang dia buat previously dia cuma buat half way sebabnya cikgu kata dia ternmapak kereta i balik rumah. ni padahnya bila sekolah dengan rumah dekat sangat bertentangan gitu... nampak saja mata budak tu. so dia ingat dia mak dia ni dah datang untuk ambik dia, kebetulan all the kids were doing their art outside the classroom. Hmm... masa i dapat tau dia hanya buat half way i felt inside my heart "why laaa..why laa.... budak lain buat habis, why la anak i tak siapkan?" hahhh!! gila punya mak kan?? then i snapped out of it.... just hugged my child tightly and said "it's ok..next time Maryam siapkan ok?" she angguk.. and i felt so damn bad tau... apa punya mak laa i ni...

then there was today... another art work day! when i arrived to fetch her, the first thing she said to me was "Mommy...Mommy...Mommy....." sambil tangan dok tunjuk kat lantai benda apa dia buat. ohh.... kali ni mata i melilau lagi cari yang mana satu Maryam buat... hahahah... very happy to see her finished her work completely this time. Alhamdulillah... and i praised her all the way depan cikgu dia masa tu sampai la masuk kereta dan sampai rumah... kenyang agaknya budak tu kena puji. i have always believed in the power of PRAISING. i do it almost everyday. sebab i think it increses the child positive attitude. contoh pagi2 buta subuh tu dia bangun bukak mata i would always say to her "baiknya hati Maryam tak susahkan Mommy untuk kejutkan Maryam", "Bijaknya Maryam Mandi pagi" "Cantiknya Maryam pakai baju sekolah ni" memang constantly buat. Sebelum dia sekolah pun i have always praised her for every effort she showed. i could see that this thing managed to increase her confidence level. she could order her own food at KFC drive through tau.. walaupun dia cakap bunyi pelat tu tak hilang lagi, still the confidence level tu yang kita nak. and every time we eat outside, i would give her the money to go and pay at the counter while i watch her from the table, memang i suka tengok how merapu she speaks at the counter pun, i think dia ada self confident yang baik. Alhamdulillah.... 

ok lah, i dah jauh menyimpang dari post yang i nak cerita ni... i think lepas ni i need to get a nice box to keep all the things that she brings back from school. i said to her tadi dalaM keta, nanti Maryam dah besar boleh tengok semua ni balik... hehehe... 

jumaat kena pakai baju sukan. beg tu beg sekolah bagi tu. semua budak galas beg yang sama. klasik sangat beg tu.hahaha

progress at school setelah sebulan bersekolah  ni i rasa she is doing fine just like other normal kids do. belum ponteng lagi so far. i love the fact that the teachers could spare me some time when i fetch her just to  speak about Maryam's day at school. i would ask them about her day ja. not many questions pun. cikgu-cikgu pun tak lokek nak menjawab and akan cuba bersembang dengan kita sebaik mungkin. my only concern is, budak Maryam ni tak nak makan kat sekolah langsung. tu lah bahana bila anak jenis fussy bab makan. sebenarnya orang kalau tengok Maryam orang ingat dia jenis no hal bab makan, tolak batu and kayu ja, but actually not so. Maryam ada certain foods yang dia suka dan avoid completely walaupun dia pemakan sayur, pemakan buah-buahan but dia jenis memilih jugak ok. so kat sekolah mana ada orang serve carbonara,fish soup,chicken rice,vegetable soup semua  benda..

mostly breakfast depa are bihun goreng, nasik goreng, mee goreng, kuih-kuih... memang tak la anak i nak makan. so what i do is, i give her bakal... selalunya sandwiches or roti colat camtu lah... still budak ni ada mood dia jugak. kadang habis dia makan. kadang lansung  tak makan langsung. yang mak dia ni mati akal dah nak bagi bekal apa pagi2... mana larat weh nak masak...huhu.... 

so, setiap kali balik sekolah budak ni memang buat macam kebuluran. mintak nasik, mintak itu, mintak ini nak makan... haihhh... yang tak tahan tu tiap kali balik sekolah kena singgah petro station nak beli something for her to kunyah2... kalau tak stop paham2 lah... meleleh laa ayaq mata tu. i noticed last night that she is losing some weight.. risau pulak mak....nampak anak macam kurus sikit. hukhuk... kat sekolah dia ni antara budak paling aktif cikgu kata. i paham sangat "aktif" tu merujuk kepada pergerakkan fizikal la tu... hahaha.. i rasa dia konpen dah dok main sakan kat sekolah. lari sana lari sini... hahahha... 

apa pun, i think we did make the right choice to send her to school. tak ada lagi kes yang tawar hati or dramas so far... just plain happy. Alhamdulillah... i doakan semoga Allah akan protect anak-anak kita semua di mana pun depa berada. Ameen.

ok bai.

hari tu rambut ni dah potong. bak kata my friend rambut sekarang rambut fesyen tembikai. hahaha...

SEKOLAH TADIKA DAH....

ini ja gambar yang sempat snap. muka ada senyum kan

Alhamdulillah... finally jadi budak sekolah dah anak mommy.

tak tergambar perasaan mak-mak ni.. overwhelmed. Actually the decision to allow her to start schooling ni bukan dirancang. it was all unexpected. i memang dah firmed with my decision long time ago that Maryam would only start schooling next year instead. maybe naluri mak-mak yang tak  boleh nak LET GO lagi kot di pihak i. i yang tak bersedia nak bagi dia sekolah, nak suruh dia bangun awal-awal pagi, nak suruh dia survive kat kindy tu.. memang i tak ready. macm-macam dalam kepala otak mak-mak yang overprotective ni kot?

but,

masuk hari ke 2 persekolahan kindy tu, naluri ni rasa sangat kesian bila Maryam kept saying "nak sekolah" sebab kindy tu pun currently a few houses away from my house. diorang stationed kat situ as bangunan sementara sebab thier permanent building is still being renovated. so, hari-harilah Maryam boleh nampak sekolah tu... mana tak luluh hati budak kecik tu bila tengok ramai budak and dia pun teringin gamaknya nak berkawan ramai-ramai cemtu kan...

i pulak kebetulan cuti seminggu masa tu sebab final exam di USM untuk study. and after my 1st paper hari selasa 5 Januari 2015, i decided to go and talk to the school principle. and Alhamdulillah, syukur segala keraguan dalam hati memang hilang dan keyakinan untuk menghatar tu terus timbul. i admit i memang sangat cerewet. memang i susah nak nak accept something for my child especially bab early childhood education ni i agak berhati-hati. i guess being an educator and also currently undergoing a postgraduate studies in education line jugak so i always believed that i could "teach" my girl on my own..and i think i;m doing pretty good so far with her sebab she entered kindy with the knowledge of ABC, 123 in BM and in English also Alif, Ba, Ta with doa makan and a few dzikirs yang personally taught her every day sebelum ni. i even started teaching her reading too. but, i guess, she needs to be surrounded with friends. and she loves having friends very much, so in the end... i thought Maryam's HAPPINESS is all that matter. 

Maryam has proven us all that she is ok in school. the first day she went to school she basically went in straight into the class effortlessly. i was expected some crying dramas but none. Alhamdulillah... lega hati mak2 ni. i even stalked her from my house dok curi2 dengar kot2 bunyi dia mengeh, memang takda. menjerit2 dengar suar budak2 main ada la time tu... 

the first dan second day balik sekolah DIA MENAGIS TAK NAK BALIK!! pelik dak anak i?? garu kepala jugak la... rupanya dia nengeh sebab i datang ambik dia awal and dia nak join kawan2 mandi dulu. so after that masuk 3rd day i told the theachers to let Maryam join kawan-kawan mandi dulu. Alhamdulillah... lepas tu dah tak merambu ayaq mata. masuk keta, lena everytime i fetch her to send to rumah Maktok dia pulak.

so far, i am happy to see her. such a good lilttle girl. bangun pagi everyday at 6.30am. sangat mudah. mandi air suam la hari2. Alhamdulillah Allah mempermudahkan segalanya so far.. i am forever grateful for this blessing.tak tau nak explain cemana dah... bersyukur saja lah.

i don't expect Maryam to be an intelligent or outstanding at the tender age of 3 yrs 2months old ni.. dia lahir hujung tahun 2011. so for me she is very much a baby. sebab tu i reluctant nak hantar dia ke kindy. sebab dia still minum susu dalam botol. but Alhamdulillah... i have chosen a kindy of Islamic Montessory concept. so atas dasar kaedah dirang yang i rasa natural and mengikut Fitrah anak, so i finally LET GO. i memang familiar with montessory concept but just to understand whether the school really practices the concept tu kita kena la sembang dulu.baca or tengok website tak menjamin apa2 bagi i. sekarang banyak sangat mengaku montessory i rasa.

actually panjang cita untuk i finally let go my ego ni... but one thing for sure, Allah helped me to decide and to let go. so, amat penting kita sebagai ibu bapa banyak berserah diri kepada Allah, mohon petunjuk dalam apa sekali keputusan yang melibatkan life anak.

Maryam will go through a life long education journey, InshaaAllah. so at 4,5 and 6 yrs old ni i just nak dia HAPPY and ENJOY schooling saja. bila dah start formal school di sekolah kebangsaan nanti, situation dah lain. budak2 dah diajar bersaing. pendidikan berorientasikan peperiksaan and markah exam yang dipandang masyarakat... which concerns me the most nowadays...and i'm not happy with this situation. school is a place for character building. but is it happening now in our schools??

anyway, Selamat Bersekolah Maryam... besar dah anak mommy.bijaksana lagi baik hati. Enjoy your school now baby! love you... *sebak*

saya dah sekolah tau!