SEKOLAH TADIKA DAH....

ini ja gambar yang sempat snap. muka ada senyum kan

Alhamdulillah... finally jadi budak sekolah dah anak mommy.

tak tergambar perasaan mak-mak ni.. overwhelmed. Actually the decision to allow her to start schooling ni bukan dirancang. it was all unexpected. i memang dah firmed with my decision long time ago that Maryam would only start schooling next year instead. maybe naluri mak-mak yang tak  boleh nak LET GO lagi kot di pihak i. i yang tak bersedia nak bagi dia sekolah, nak suruh dia bangun awal-awal pagi, nak suruh dia survive kat kindy tu.. memang i tak ready. macm-macam dalam kepala otak mak-mak yang overprotective ni kot?

but,

masuk hari ke 2 persekolahan kindy tu, naluri ni rasa sangat kesian bila Maryam kept saying "nak sekolah" sebab kindy tu pun currently a few houses away from my house. diorang stationed kat situ as bangunan sementara sebab thier permanent building is still being renovated. so, hari-harilah Maryam boleh nampak sekolah tu... mana tak luluh hati budak kecik tu bila tengok ramai budak and dia pun teringin gamaknya nak berkawan ramai-ramai cemtu kan...

i pulak kebetulan cuti seminggu masa tu sebab final exam di USM untuk study. and after my 1st paper hari selasa 5 Januari 2015, i decided to go and talk to the school principle. and Alhamdulillah, syukur segala keraguan dalam hati memang hilang dan keyakinan untuk menghatar tu terus timbul. i admit i memang sangat cerewet. memang i susah nak nak accept something for my child especially bab early childhood education ni i agak berhati-hati. i guess being an educator and also currently undergoing a postgraduate studies in education line jugak so i always believed that i could "teach" my girl on my own..and i think i;m doing pretty good so far with her sebab she entered kindy with the knowledge of ABC, 123 in BM and in English also Alif, Ba, Ta with doa makan and a few dzikirs yang personally taught her every day sebelum ni. i even started teaching her reading too. but, i guess, she needs to be surrounded with friends. and she loves having friends very much, so in the end... i thought Maryam's HAPPINESS is all that matter. 

Maryam has proven us all that she is ok in school. the first day she went to school she basically went in straight into the class effortlessly. i was expected some crying dramas but none. Alhamdulillah... lega hati mak2 ni. i even stalked her from my house dok curi2 dengar kot2 bunyi dia mengeh, memang takda. menjerit2 dengar suar budak2 main ada la time tu... 

the first dan second day balik sekolah DIA MENAGIS TAK NAK BALIK!! pelik dak anak i?? garu kepala jugak la... rupanya dia nengeh sebab i datang ambik dia awal and dia nak join kawan2 mandi dulu. so after that masuk 3rd day i told the theachers to let Maryam join kawan-kawan mandi dulu. Alhamdulillah... lepas tu dah tak merambu ayaq mata. masuk keta, lena everytime i fetch her to send to rumah Maktok dia pulak.

so far, i am happy to see her. such a good lilttle girl. bangun pagi everyday at 6.30am. sangat mudah. mandi air suam la hari2. Alhamdulillah Allah mempermudahkan segalanya so far.. i am forever grateful for this blessing.tak tau nak explain cemana dah... bersyukur saja lah.

i don't expect Maryam to be an intelligent or outstanding at the tender age of 3 yrs 2months old ni.. dia lahir hujung tahun 2011. so for me she is very much a baby. sebab tu i reluctant nak hantar dia ke kindy. sebab dia still minum susu dalam botol. but Alhamdulillah... i have chosen a kindy of Islamic Montessory concept. so atas dasar kaedah dirang yang i rasa natural and mengikut Fitrah anak, so i finally LET GO. i memang familiar with montessory concept but just to understand whether the school really practices the concept tu kita kena la sembang dulu.baca or tengok website tak menjamin apa2 bagi i. sekarang banyak sangat mengaku montessory i rasa.

actually panjang cita untuk i finally let go my ego ni... but one thing for sure, Allah helped me to decide and to let go. so, amat penting kita sebagai ibu bapa banyak berserah diri kepada Allah, mohon petunjuk dalam apa sekali keputusan yang melibatkan life anak.

Maryam will go through a life long education journey, InshaaAllah. so at 4,5 and 6 yrs old ni i just nak dia HAPPY and ENJOY schooling saja. bila dah start formal school di sekolah kebangsaan nanti, situation dah lain. budak2 dah diajar bersaing. pendidikan berorientasikan peperiksaan and markah exam yang dipandang masyarakat... which concerns me the most nowadays...and i'm not happy with this situation. school is a place for character building. but is it happening now in our schools??

anyway, Selamat Bersekolah Maryam... besar dah anak mommy.bijaksana lagi baik hati. Enjoy your school now baby! love you... *sebak*

saya dah sekolah tau!