I AM A FIRST TIME MOTHER & DOING EVERYTHING FOR THE FIRST TIME. so i put everything that my baby might need in a BIG baby bag! hahahha...rupanya mak2 lain bawak beg kecik cinonet saja oiii!
On top of that. i FORGOT to write MARYAM BAHYRAA's name on her stufss...sabar sajalah.
i sent my baby to the day care center with perasaan yang sangat la berat. i am sure all mothers would understand this feelings. when u have been with the baby since birth, for 24 hours, 7 days a week, for 3 months and suddenly u have to send the baby to a place where u know your baby is not gonna be at the center of attention anymore cos there are other babies as well. *sigh* again, like i said previously, IT BREAKS MY HEART *sobss*
i can only pray to Allah to protect my baby from any harm.
okay, sudah laa bercerita tentang keluhan rasa yang akan membuatkan energy2 yang negatif terpancar. let's focus on the positive part instead.
Well, at least she is placed very closed to my office, i can always
My baby is the type of baby who cannot be alone. seriously. she would not be at peace if she sees nobody around her. at least at day care, there are a lot of people around her. hopefully she would be excited. for me it's important for her to be able to adapt with situations where there are many people around her.
i heard a lot of people said that babies who stays at a day care center are very independat babies, socialable babies, less fussy babies. in other word anak tak la "Peqak buih" or manja sangat sampai bila tengok orang tak dikenali nak nangeh tak tentu hala or susah nak beramah mesra dengan orang. Wallahulam...it all depend jugak kan? tak semestinya...BUT if it's true i hope my baby will be one. at least dia tak la melalak tengok orang yang dia tak biasa. susah tu sebab i don't want my baby to be clingy...asik nak begayut dengan i saja.. no..no...cannot.
The reason Maryam is placed at a day care center is that i cannot find her a good baby sitter around here. a good baby sitter to me means somebody i can trust. that's all. It is very important for me to find someone that i could trust. if i could not find one, so it's better for my baby to be at the nursery intead. at least at nursery, their job is mainly jaga budak, bukan memasak,membasuh,mengemas rumah,etc.
i have heard so many stories around here where most of my friends' BS always ambik
cuti without telling them earlier. susah tu, kita ni keja mengajar. kalau kita tetiba ja cuti tanpa inform students, hmm..pening la nanti nak pikir class replecements and stuffs.
IF i could find a somebone yang i percaya untuk jaga Maryam, definitely i tak hantar Maryam to a nursery. but, i can't find one. i dunno anybody kat sini. beruntung lah sesapa yang ada BS yg memahami antara satu sama lain.
okeh, sudah la tu senarai2 points untuk menenagkan hati ini..i hope i am doing the best so far and the rest i leave it to Allah.
Ikot hati mau ja benti keja jaga anak sendiri...haihhhss..sabar saja laa~ hati seorang ibu, hanya ibu2 saja yang tahu.. bapak2 belom tentu akan tahu...kan?? ;p
Semoga Maryam selamat di situ, happy, ceria dan selalu dilindungi Allah. Amin...
|i miss u already baby *sigh*|