lagi sebulan ++ - career wise

latest update?? nothing much to update since i'm a bit busy with work and juggling a lot of stuffs that come my way at a very last minute. i was given a task to complete before i go for my wedding leave. so i'm currently busy with politechnic project. tension ahhh! nak kawen pun still kena buat project besar2...sakit kepala~

apart from that, i'm also busy with classes. i'm trying to finish all the syllibus and topics with my students. so that when they come back after Hari Raya, i won't have to think of any topic that has yet finished. proudly to say, this week is my last topic for all my classes. yahooo!! kesian my students, they had to attend replacement classes every evening till buka puasa time pun some of them still stuck with me...sorry ya anak2 murid. (anak ka??) at least i have 1 thing to not be worried about. i will meet them 1 week after raya to settle the presentations. =) kalau boss i tahu semua ni..mati! gila kan i managed to finish everything 5 weeks earlier! ngeheheh...pasni i nak relax2. masuk kelas tak mengajar or batalkan ja kelas! huhu

assignements budak2 all will be checked as soon as possible. but everynite, mata ni banyak nak pejam dari membaca assignments...also actively chasing or rather hunting those who have not sumbmitted their assignments!! dah rupa mak singa dah i amuk tiap2 kelas...ada ja yang tak punctual taken the assignments so lightly...ni lah budak2 poli...*sigh*

in a nutshell, banyak laa keja yang nak kena buat...i can't wait to finish everything. but 1 lesson that i got from all these, the work will never has its ending! kerja! kerja! kerja! =) nak kawen pun kena fikir kerja lagi...aiyakk!

having a panic attack for ur big day already??

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why do most of us ( i mean girls) get panicked easily when it comes to things related to our engagement & wedding ya?? i don't know how to describe it but the feelings we have when the date is nearer is so overwhelming...and all of suddeng u become so concious about the whole thing and all the negative thoughts seem to run accross your mind...we have all these questions of " WHAT IF...." ok example:-

1. what if the make up turns out bad?

2. what if the day rains so heavily?

3.what if the dress can't be buttoned/or the zip won't zip?

4 what if the foods won't be enough for everybody?

5. what if the pictures won't turn out good?

6. what if we look so damn fat in the pictures?

7. what if the guests think that this is one sucks wedding/engagement?

8. what if....

9. what if.... and the list goes on

hahah..i mean when all of these "what if.." thingy keep rulling your thought u will definitely feel like screaming or maybe crying cos u don't get the comfort words that u are supposed to get. for a start, i think it is normal to be panicked ok.. cos if u don't panic at all, kering betul hati u la... huhu (oops!)

well, i'm writing this entry specifically to address the issue that many of us seems to care a lot about the things that we couldn't control during our big day.. i mean, yes there will definitely be a few glitches here and there cos nothing perfect but Allah. but to be so worried about the whole thing is certainly unnecessary indeed...yes, we can't help but wanting the best for everything that we have planned so long and there is no space in our mind to just let anything goes in a wrong direction during the day...but then again..we can only plan but Allah determines everything..so just chill and let go of those negative thoughts...the most important thing is segala-galanya selamat...yang bertunang selamat ditunangkan & yang bernikah selamat dinikahkan... i mean in the end, that's the only thing that matters, rite??

i'm also writing this entry with hope to comfort a friend who is going to have her egagement day by next week, insyaAllah...hope she's reading this and keep on being positive and stop caring about what other people minght say cos obviously, those people opinions are not important...ok =)

and to anyone who's preparing and waiting for the day to happen, remember it's just inside your mind...stop thinking too much. just go with the flow...have a great time preparing and tawakal & redha for anything and everthing! only then u will be free....

p/s: memandai ja nak comfort orang,..hihi

LOVE!

emotional wreck!

erkk..am i being paranoid??
well, at first i was happy to learn that finally fiance decided to have his own Facebook after a long waiting and a long persuading...guess what?? suddenly it srtuck me hard...

~ what if ada awek mengorat dia kt page dia?

~what if he spends a little too much time facebooking?

~what if he got too caught up like i did when i first time opened my FB?

warghhhhhh!!! napa i macam paranoid gila nih?? i was deep into this topic till i couldn't sleep well on the nite i opened his FB...WHY? cos the fact that he didn't change his status on FB from IN A RETIONSHIP to ENGAGE to me really drove me crazy and i was so upset i gave him a silent treatment that nite...i mean who wouldn't rite? dah tunang tapi napa nak guna "in a relationship" kan? penat ja FB cipta term "Engaged to"...i thought mesti something fishy goin on... =( so i was so damn angry then i bambarded him with SMSes...he didn't reply and went straight to bed...GERAM!! arghhh...

but when i woke up this morning i opened his FB and i saw the status has been changed to Engaged to me...i felt relieved and a bit guilty for nagging at him..and we're cool now since he pujuk2 a bit...cair la..ngeheheh..after all i pun malas nak drag things too long and waste my energy gaduh and majuk lama2...yes, i used to be that person who would sulk for more than a day..and we would have a long argument over stupid stuffs cos i was being silly and dragged him into that...but i think, i have changed a lot these days...hmm, maybe beacause when you're in a serious relationship like this we tend to give and take kot...and of course we feel a lot secure and comfortable to move to this stage ( i mean gettin hitched!) =)

meanwhile, we have do have plan this weekend. yippppy!!! the 1st date since we got engaged! lama tak kuar jalan2...so where to this time?? jln2, makan2,movie and to look for a dress maker in penang kot... i still keep this person's business card and been to her shop..i want to go and check her out first...last time we went there my fiance did most of the talking and i was passive cos i had no idea what to ask and look for...hmm...hopefully this time around i'll be more chatty. hahah! but i won't get my hope too high though,..this is just a start of my journey to survey for my wedding..so nothing serious just yet. =p

examination

recieved a text msg from my niece this early morning telling me to pray for her to do well during answering her SPM starting today... ohh!! SPM..i almost forgot that today is the big day for them...hmm,..honestly SPM was the hardest exam in my life by far..nothing could compare to it..i mean i went through all the big examinations in the country..SPM,STPM..and all the exams back in Uni were not as neve recking as SPM...(well in my opinion lah).. i remeber the day of my SPM day...i was all nervous, swetty all over and my hands were shaking while ansewring the 1st paper...i couldn't write!! and i kept asking for more papers cos apparently i went blanked!...i mean the invigilator could notice that...and that right moment she approched me and said that i should relax...hahah...malu gila la..well, that exactly what i did..i stopped for a few minutes trying to compose myself and not looking and my friends who were actively answering the questions and writing..and writing and writing,..gosshhh!

well, i didn't do well in my SPM. =( i decided to go to form 6 cos i wanted to study...all my friends didn't want to pursue the form 6 cos back then it was considered not cool. u have to wear the school uniform and stuffs...so the went to college and poly...leaving me all alone in new school...

looking back, i would say that it was a blessing in disguise... i did well in my form 6 and managed to secure a place in 1 of the top uni in the country...hihih...and continued to do quite well in there..heheh..i never considered myself as an excellent student or something and in uni i was really really pemalas type of student...but i would make sure all my works were done on time and studied at the very last minute for my exams...burning the midnite oils etc... i miss those moments...

now, for my 2 nieces who are battling with SPM... i wish u girls all the very best of luck..trust me u need all the lucks!hahahahha...gurau2...hmm, just remember that we actually have the control of our future... just imagine yourself in 10 years.. where are u? if u see yourself working your ass out and underpaid,..then that's exactly what u gonna be..on the other hand, if u picture youself doing what u have always wanted..sitting in a very comfortable chair in an airconditioned place with a lot of money...then work hard to achieve that! no pain no gain babe!!

also, we can never underestimate the late develeper...i mean a person could be all smart and scoring all A's throughout his or her years in schools but most of the time the "late developers" will overtake them..i mean through my experince being a "late developer" haha...i've seen my high school friends that were considered smart group and had all the teachers's atenttions to them but in the end, the kinda drifted apart from continuing being excellent.. biasa2 ja result and keja pun biasa2 ja akhirnya...so, never ever judge people ok...*wink*

it opens my eyes..

hmm...my job descriptions basically i teach at one of the higher learning instituitions..and this semester for the first time i have to complete 30 hours lecture for the final semester students and we're basically towards the end of the semester already... so for these students my lectures through out the whole sem deal with a lot on topics to prepare theme for job.. i must say i love all the topics that i tech this time around cos i get to create all the contents myself..

ok, so the final topic was about handling job interview... so i took extra effort to prepare a mock interview for all my final sem students...instead of having a normal presentations i change the format by doing interview for them..so what i try to tell here is that, only through this method i find myself getting to know my students more rather that giving a normal lecture in the class.. through the interview, it opens my eyes widely and change many of my wrong perceptions towards many of my students.. i mean i just found that that many of them are very craetive people and the showed me lots of their previous works... i was speechless to see one of the students' photography works...they surprised me good.. i love the fact that his works are very professional looking...in the end,.. my student offered me to a very special price if i were to take him as mu wedding photographer...and i kinda like looking at his works so far... maybe i shuould include him into my list! ( well, honestly i have no list just yet but, i will remember to put him on my list of good photographer!hihi) so do click here to access to his previous works... to me, for a young adult like him to be able to do such flawless work... i give him 2 thumbs up!! =)

oh, btw.. our interview that was supposed to be a mock ineterview turned into a conversation on wedding photogrphy topic..adoi...

his work!...................>

make me beautiful pls

i read somewhere that we need to make sure that skin care, brow shaping and makeup consultation are on our Bridal Checklist.. well very true indeed...we cannot just leave to the so called make up artist to do whatever they want on our face rite.we need to sit and discuss about it beforehand.so we won't end up looking weird or worst looking like a clown...and many stories that i have heard from friends they are just too afraid to complain about their make up during or after their make up is done.it's like an unspoken rule between brides to be and the person who does the the make up. well, u can count me into this list! my friend said that i should never utter a word during the session. means..no complain, no this, no that,just be quiet and wait till u are done.. that was exactly what i did..shut my mouth, try to remain calm and just hope for the best that i won't end up looking like a ghost!but god knows how fragile i was inside... =(

it amazes me everytime i see a beutifully done brides during their weddind day...how glowing looking they are, how flawless their make up looks...and mostly i find myself surprise to look at the bride..how diffrent they look...i can only wish that during my day i will look at least good if not as beautiful as others..for me, make up is super important to enhance one's beauty and at the same time the make up that we wear must make us feel confident...

i'm still in search of a good make up artist around penang cos i really don't want to end up looking weird with a really heavy make up on..in my opinion, a really good make up artist should know how to conceal our flaws by not complaining about our bad skin and such..i still can't forget my betie's experince about he make up during her wedding...to cut the story short, she was conned by this so called make up artist when that hamba Allah did her make up and she was not happy with it ( ya la janji guna MAC tapi pakai mustika ratu..ada ka??) and she ended up having no confidence at all and that make up artist had the gut to say to her that "seri dah hilang la sebab nikah dah lama sangat" adussss...bedesing telingaku!!

i've seen a few make ups done by a few people in penang i mean..and so far i'm in no position to critic their works it's just that the make up for each bride looks the same... sama ja semua...so macam boring la tgk..sepesen.. and muka jadi garang bila dh siap make up..napa tah??i really need recommendations from people on this matter..just hope that i could find a good make up artist that could make me look and feel beautiful... =) *wink*