Maryam 5th Birthday

Happy 5th Birthday to the most wonderful daughter of mine... Alhamdulillah, Maryam turned 5 this month. we had a bit of celebration at home and at school. but today I wanted to share a few memories of her school birthday celebration last Friday.


Strawberry shortcake theme

Tahun ni I decided not to give out any goodies bag to the children, instead I ordered Bento meals for them. Maryam is having a bit of allergy this time, so I removed all the foods that I suspected she is allergic to especially junk foods/fast foods. Alhamdulillah , I managed to find somebody who could prepare bento on a large scale.. she is a home based baker and skilful too.. boleh buat dessert also boleh masak homemade foods prepared from scratch...lega rasa. Paling penting terasa guilty-free sebab tak menjamu apa-apa jenis junk foods to the kids. I could easily put stationaries or other stuffs as goodies bag for the kids, but it was not cost-effective for me. rasa macam membazir jugak. Hence, I niatkan dalam hati bagi anak-anak tu makan as kenduri sajalah... seronok tengok depa enjoy the foods. Menu in the bento were Bolognese spagetthi kuah tak pakai preggo okay.. dia buat sendiri to suit the kids. ada buah, ada homemade cookies, ada homemade bun too. Kenyang depa makan hari tu.

Let's check out some of the pics,

Bento for the kids

Maryam and friends enjoying their meals
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pandai makan!



Cake cutting with her favourite teacher - Cikgu Siti Eshah. Happy lah dia!



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Again, HAPPY 5th BIRTHDAY anak mommy yang baik dan solehah... You know we love you very much and always doa the best for you. Soon, you will be a KAKAK and I know you will be the best kakak anyone could ever ask for! LOVE YOU DARLING!

YES, I'm pregnant.... Alhamdulillah. ;)

Another Haircut

pegang botoi Upin Ipin sambil merenung naseb rambut.

This was her 3rd haircut this year. the 2 previous haicuts were more like a trim to her fringe and a little bit at the back. but this time around we went further by cutting it short. like way shorter than usual. huhu...this is actually her Maktok's wish. cos Maryam hates to have her hair all tied up in pony tail and such. so that left us with no choice but to snip..snip..snip... i particularly was a little sad to see her curls gone. ;( i love her curls so much. that was her trademark all these while. we don't really know where she got the curls from cos both me and my husband are naturally straight hair. i even asked the hair dresser whether we could maintain her curls, she said no way...hahaha...so bubbye... 

on the other hand, i think i love loking at Maryam with short hair version. looks so cheeky... ;) and i'm so proud to see her maintaining her cool during the haircut session. no drama. #happyMom. 

one big girl.

ohh, for that 5 minutes session, we had to pay RM15. pheww... i still rember, when i was little, my haircut only cost my mak around RM2-RM5 only...hahaha...

Maryam @ 1 year and a half.

Assalamualaikum. hari ni nak cita tentang anak lagi.

Maryam dah 1 tahun 6 bulan. yeah..how time flies huh..in fact always ulang ayat ni...i think my baby is growing super fast everyday. ada saja benda baru yang pelik or yang lawak or yang comel or yang mendidih kalau i tengok. hehh..

the most noticeable character for the past few weeks is that she is getting more and more attached to me. i mean she used to be more "independent" in the sense that she would not mind if i disappear from her for a while or if i was not around her. she was totally fine with it..

And now, what happened? well, she would not let me leave her sight. like if her dad pulls her stroller i have to be by her side and holding her hand...lawak dak?? budak tu dok dalam stroller sambil seblah tangan dia kena pegang tangan i. if i hilang sat saja for example masuk fitting room, she would be screaming outside calling me!! "HAAAMIIIIII....MEEEEEMEEEE!" (mommy laa tu kalau ikot bahasa dia) adoi laa anak...

i think she now is much more capable at throwing tantrums in public than she used to be. hahahha...usually i would explain to her why she needed to remain in her stroller. and now, guess what? the so called explainations don't really work all that well...she would be in her stroller for 30 mins max and calls for help to get her off....so now, memang i kena alternate...30 mins in stroller..another 15 mins she could walk on her own or i have to carry her myself. not even her dad can. only mom.

i'm the type of parent who believes in giving my child explainations before or during somethings that is gonna involve her. example, if we plan to go out for lunch, i would personally talk to her. i know she's a baby, she doesn't actually understand what i say, but trust me, any baby understands what mom has got to say or explain. this would usually minimize the drama in public. for my case. but, these days, the power of "speech" mak2 yang i always pakai memang takdak effect sangat dah.. she does what she wants. 

and, as a mother i think, when i sit back and think deeply, i think it is normal when u have a very active toddler. how can we ask them to co-operate while we on the other end, sometimes refuse to co-operate with certain things in life as well.how can we ask a toddler to sit still, if we ourselves cannot and it is impossible to be in a still position also.so...i guess i just need to let go of certain things that i don't approve kot...and just bear with it. phewww...

back to her manja berlebihan, i think maybe it has got something to do with my busy days for the past few weeks ni. i admit when i get home sometimes i just wish for her to be sleeping because i was so tired with work. such a bad mom...but i tak tau laa, why she suddenly gets more attached to me than it used to. memang tahap i wajib duduk depan dia. huiii..now, i only watch her favourite TV shows saja la..nak tengok  Masterchefs Celebrity pun i kena mintak izin dulu tau..hahahha...but luckily laa malam tak dak Upin Ipin and Thomas & Friends or Geng Bas Sekolah. ;-/

Makan jarang laa bersuap sekarang..semua nak buat seniri

yang paling tak tahan, tidur malam dengan kasut. tapi tidur memang mak kena dodoi. tidur beriba tau.

hide and seek sangat...

Ini lah the worst injury that she ever had at the age of 1 year 3 months plus... PIPI LEBAM! worst because she has never had any injury that lasts more that 12 hours kot. setakat jatuh and scratches on her legs or hands tu biasa la bg budak yg aktif macam Maryam ni. BUT last nite she and her dad was playing hide and seek and she accidentally bumped into the wall, the edge of the wall. As the result of that, maka dapat laaa hasil sebijik di pipi tu..kesian tengok dia. knowing this lil kid, who loveeees running than walking more than anything else, sometimes we just have to be more careful with her. but  i guess last nite memang laa big accidents dua beranak ni.

she thought her dad was gonna chase her and she just ran without looking what was ahead of her. and bedebukkkk!! i was at the other end was shocked and numbed seeing her screaming in pain. tekaku seketika mak ni... i picked her up and try to make her feel better but didn't work. i knew right away that this time around it was more serious and painful for her. she kept screaming and i was looking for any sign of bleeding but tak pun..but she kept screaming and then i saw her left cheek started to turn red and slowly looking bluish... sah laaa...sudah lebam.

i asked Rizal tu take some ice in the fridge and put that on her cheek. she stopped screaming instantly. sempat pulak dalam bejurai ayaq mata tur she said "waaaaaaa" macam kagum kot ice tu buat dia rasa lega...

And then she started to want to play with the ice pack...tebantut usaha mak dia ni nk redakan sakit pipi dia tu..

tapi tahu laa, memang sakit gila budak ni sebab bunyi kuat belaga tu....kalau i kena pon mau bejurai air mata jugak tahan sakit..

i think this incident made her dad felt so guitly. and he was so worried anything bad happened to her and kept checking on her.

it's amazing how a child can recover so fast sebab tak sampai 10 minit budak ni dah sambung balik belari2  naik turun katil pulak... adoi...

later after maghrib, we went out to jusco and one chinese uncle saw her black cheek. he said to us to boil an egg and then while the egg warms down, press gently on the cheek. so the lebam part would heal faster...silly me, i put ice pack intead of tuam dengan something warm....*sigh*

"Bila nak bagi adik kat Maryam?"

Lama tak menaip entry. kekok pulak. ewahhh..mengada! today i've no evening class and office work pun tak berapa demanding sangat hari ni, so i thought of curi masa writing something for the sake of missing writing. ada ka?? hehh...

Rasa macam dah lama sangat tak udpate anything. the reason being ... i have nothing to write. hehehe.. so today i think i have something to write after encountered a few pregnancy stories and got to know that many people who gave birth almost towards the end of 2011 or early 2012, which was my batch la beranak time tu now are already pregnant with their second child. woww... you go girls!! seronok baca stories depa.

Also at the same time, lately i've been getting a frequent question regarding when will i be having the next baby?? 

My first reactions in this topic is always "HAHAH....SOON" just enough to keep them guessing or satisfying with my answer. heheh...

Kalau jawab, "ehh anak i baru setahun tiga bulan you..." confirmed orang balas "ehh...i dulu anak umur setahun dah pregnant balik. tak mau buang masa, etc..etc..etc.."

i am not gonna lie that sometimes i do wish i could post a pregnancy test that shows a double lines or a scan picture of my uterus with a baby sack here. hahaha...

Honestly, it is NOT an annoying question at all. in fact it is a positive question. :) i think i welcome this sort of question anytime. it gets me into the baby mood i think.. i loveeee babies...i remember telling  my hubs that i didn't want Maryam to grow up. i wanted her to remain a baby forever as i see her growing by the day.

Who didn't like babies. their pretty, smell heavenly and adorable looking. kan!! well, messy but cute.

Even the hubs is almost ready for the second baby. he said that to me if ada rezeki maybe we can have another baby this year. 

But mostly i would just keep quiet when he said that. hehehe..dunno how to react. i think i am the one who is not ready for baby number 2 just yet. How la to welcome a new baby?? We're moving into a new house by the end of this year. i think moving into a new house requires a whole lot of energy and time and everything. i can't see myself being pregnant and busy with the new house. i want to be involve in the process of moving out of this current rental house and get busy with the new house too. i can't be sitting and heavily pregnant at that time looking and giving orders to people. that just not fun! hahahah...adakah alasan i ini mengarut??? seriously...

if i get pregnant now, by November i would already be in labour kot. and we're planning to move into the new house around that time also. again, HOW laaa...

The second reason is that i am planning to pursue my post graduate studies this year.InsyaaAllah. and the new semester will take place in September. Unlike those days sem baru started on June tak silap. so now i have to wait for September. i can't register myself in September and like 2 months later tangguh sem pulak because i have to give birth. that's just not me.. at least i should finish one semester and then have my baby number 2. okay kot tangguh. hahahha berniat tangguh jugak rupanya...

Seriously, these 2 agendas in my life currently make me stop wishing to get pregnant soon. not that i simply don't want another baby. i think betul lah kata orang, after sometime, when we forget the pain of giving birth and the baby starts to get a little bit older, we start having the feeling of missing being pregnant again. rite??

yep, i miss being fat like that...and i love looking at the preggers nowadays. simply beautiful. ;)) now i understand, no matter how ugly i felt when i was pregnant previously, i think there are people secretly thinking "ohh seronoknya tengok dia tu pregnant". at least i think that way.

Another reason is that i wanted to be ready. Like 120% ready with the second pregnancy and in welcoming the new one into the family. Physically, mentally, financially and also making sure that My Maryam is also ready to have another sibling too. After a year plus of giving birth i still have not lost a lot of weight. depressing sangat lah tengok badan seniri... i have to get back in shape and energetic mostly if i want to get pregnant. that is why i am currently planning to hit the gym and shake off these fats. i have too much fat. i need to get rid of them first. i want to be healthy while i am pregnant. that's my gold. dok tunggu gym tu bukak next month. baru nak pi. hehh...hari2 i pi buat lawatan tak rasmi tau, ushar gym tu. it's exclusively for female only gym. so tak segan sangat nak gedik santai di situ.

Readiness is very important  in my case as i want to the second pregnancy and baby to be a focus point when the time comes. i didn't manage to breastfeed Maryam for as long as i wanted because of a few circumstances which i think was fully my fault. i didn't equip myself with enough knowledge and also i failed to continue providing her the breast milk at least until she was 6 months. she stopped at almost 5 months only. i don't want to reminiscent of the past thinking how it went wrong. biar la berlalu... and i think Maryam is very healthy and smart girl. she is even more healthy than the brestfed babies i know. so i consider this as our rezeki. Alhamdulillah and i am very proud of her. she is learning to speak nowadays and she uses English too. she's only 15months. ;) see, i'm proud like that. hope when she finally able to read, she will read  this and know how proud mommy is when talking about Maryam.

i went through a not so easy breezy pregnancy stage. with two pregnacies i've had before they were quite tough. one ended with a miscarriage. i disappeared from the blogging world for a while and only managed to write back when i was at 6 months pregnant. when i finally felt good to join this social meadia back. really, my pregnancies were awful. i felt miserable and gloomy at least the first 20 weeks. it was so hard for me back then that i had to take unpaid leave. couldn't work, couldn't eat, couldn't socialise, PUKED ALL DAY... hadoi... so i better rest for a while la.. i know every pregnancy is different. i might have a great pregnancy next. who knows...tak bermakna i cakap camni i takot nak pregnant lagi okay... ;)) bukan i tak enjoy langsung my pregnancy...i had great times too...Alhamdulillah.

ok apa lagi reason i boleh state kat sini?Well...hmm..tu saja kot for now...i want to clarify that i am not rejecting the fact that ANAK ITU REZEKI DAN SIAPA KITA UNTUK MENENTUKAN BILA PATUT DIA DATANG. Not at all, itu cakap orang yang tak beriman pada pendapat i. but, i think in general people have their own reasons of why they plan to gap their childeren's age. as for me, these are basically how i feel. and i don't think it's a right thing to do something without being ready first.i'm just suck at multitasking! hahahha...

okay, peace!

handling these two people in my life pun is quite handful, i think. ;p

p.s. i tak sentap pon orang tanya soalan kat i...i'm fine...herherher...positive kan minda dan hati. 

foods.

i never really understood the feelings of wanting to give the best for a child until i myself became a mother. yeah..this includes what goes into my child mouth.

i never really gave a damn about baby's food before i learnt that Maryam actually an elergic baby. i started her on solid foods at a few days before she turned 6 months and she was so good at chewing and swallowing her first food. i remembered that. i gave her the instant one.hahaha...kesian maryam. mak maryam langsung takdak ilmu tentang pemakan anak masa tu. seriously i thought why go through hassle? instant ones kan banyak! kan??? macam2 perasa pulak tu...and they look cool and delicious too...see the packaging la kan...nampak sangat best la instant foods for babies on  the counter nowadays...

until, at day 3 maryam was on the intant cereal i noticed she had red spots growing on her legs and her back. i was soooo stupid to think that she has developed demam campak.so my mak and also our BS quickly went to take the daun untuk mandikan dia and also we gave her some air kelapa to see betul ke tak she had chicken pox.


No she was not developing chicken pox. after a week the reddish sports didn't seem like a chicken pox at all and we went to her doctor. and BAMMM!! the doc said she is allergic to something. and he asked us what we gave her for the past 7 days....it was instant cereal..


and i was soooo angry at myself thinking how stupid i was. for not knowing the symptoms. see i know nothing about taking care of my baby at that time. and my mak and our  BS pun wasn't really sure why maryam punya badan naik merah2 cos they never experienced that before.

the worse part when she had her whole body except her face turning red. she practically looked like a baked lobster! kesian tau.... Alhamdulillah nothing bad happend. i didn't know that a baby could die by eating foods that are not suitable for them. 

and then the doctor said i had to stop giving her what i usually feed her and he taught me to give her only fruits and veggie puree instead and she had to go through treatments with the specialist too for the whole of  9 days and we had to go to the hospital everyday because of that... . i knew that i should give her puree as 1st food. but it was just too convinient to give the instant ones i guess. kan?? senang gila...ceduk,letak air, kacau, suap! sedapppp...

and from that moment i started learning about preparing baby foods from a few friends and also they invited me into the solid food group on fb which really an eye opener for me...yeah...it's the coolest thing to prepare you baby with the homemade food.

and i think being able to cook our baby the homemade foods is precious. try la dulu baru tahu betapa seronoknya tengok anak makan kan, kawan2?? ;)

anyways...i firmly believe that it is a matter of choice. if some people think that giving the instant ones are the best for their children than who are we to say it is wrong??

the same goes with me, when i chose to give Maryam foods that are cooked by me or my mak, than i really expect people to respect the choice too. and it is annoying to hear comments from the people who do not understand about the choice i made.especially if they have never gone through the jouney i went. they do not undestand that every baby is different! some babies can tolarate certain foods. some just cannot!

 examples:-  
  

 Comment 1: waaaa besemangan hang no...nanti anak besaq depa sebat jugak KFC dengan MCD     

                      hari2....buat penat ja ajaq makan elok2 ni...

Comment 2: anak pertama memang la excited nak buat macam2..mai anak no.2,3,4,...hmm...sumbat 

                      yang ready jugak nanti.

Comment 3: budak kecik2  lagi dah bagi macam2 makan...tak sakit perut ka?? boleh ka bagi  

                      labu  tu...tak elok tau...angin!

respect. as simple as that. and again every baby is unique.

and please be a parent first and learn about the baby development too if u haven't been one. then you will know how important it is for them to eat healthily at the very early stage. it it simple because they really need the nutrients from good foods for their brain to develop as well as for the health. kesian tengok anak with runny nose, always demam, batuk and so on...tengok balik apa anak makan. that is the simplest rule when your baby is sick. sebab itu saja rutin harian seorang bayi kan...makan dan tidur. selain enviroment laa...

whatever that we feed them at the early stage will have a big consequneces in their future. we don't want our children to grow up and be an adult with problems like obesity, high blood pressure, heart desease and so on..and Malaysia nowdays pun dah dapat tangga yang atas2 jugak dengan problem ni kan...semua  berpunca dari pemakanan. it all began when they were small.

i don't know how long my baby will be able to continue eating healthily. yes, they grow up eating fast foods and junks too. but all i know is the way we eat when we were small has the biggest impact when we became an adult. just teach the our children to eat good foods.God will, they will blossom into healthier adult.

what our parents fed us when we were small was beyond our control. YES they fed us with sugar and salt in our baby foods. simply because they were not aware of the facts. but they didn't have all the infomations back then. but, we are the generations with all the informations just at one click away... google tengok tentang baby foods...we will get a lot of info why we should only give the best while they are still young. 


i'm not planning to keep the sugar & salt away from my child's foods forever...but i know that the important to keep these two ingredients at least before she  turns 2 years old. until she reaches the appropriate age then she can have the adult foods. so please don't make comment as if i am torturing my little baby pulak....anoyying ok!

i just don'y want her to grow up being a picky eater or wanting to eat certain foods only. or hates vegetables...berapa ramai kanak2 membesar tak nak makan sayur dan buah?? ramai kot. and i just don't want her to be one. 

for me, every parent have their own way in raising a child. that part we should really respect and don't say or question why. and act as if we have the best way compared to the other parents. that is just rude.

at the age of 10 months++ now, my baby seems to be enjoying all kind of tastes and i am so happy to see that. when i think back, kesian kalau kita restrict makanan anak to only certain foods saja padahal ada pelbagai jenis yang boleh dimakan. cuma mentality kita saja yang menghalang.

and no, i am not a perfect parent . sometimes telepas jugak biskut2 and adult foods masuk mulut dia and i am ok with that. as long as i know what goes into her little mouth. ;)

 i still have sooo many things that i need to learn and read and ask the right people. when i fisrt got pregnant, i didn't reeally bother to learn about taking care of a baby. i thought i would come naturally. i was wrong! i shoud have equipped myself with knowledge first and the rest will come naturally. that is my personal opinion.

and my lil' girl is turning 1 real soon..sooo excited because after that she can eat new kinds of foods pulak...and the best part after a child is turning one is that  the milk is the supplimentary and the foods will become the main....so, yeayyy to that!!!

kalau jalan2, beg Maryam memang banyak stok makanan. ;)

thermost yang banyak berjasa!

gambaq raya kami

official family photo on the first day of the Eid 2012.

FINALLY.... we have proper family raya photo this year... *lega semacam* yeah, i felt relieved to have this picture to commemorate our first raya as parents to the lil' one. hehehe... 

i really wanted to have a photo session. a quick one since Maryam is the type of person who is not at ease with strangers. so i really malas to go through the drama with her crying and all. so it was very important for me to choose a professional photog to do this. cewahh...hahaha...but ok la, we had this session done within 30 minutes lebeh kurang.

We had our family foto taken at the Star East Wedding Gallery. i didn't know that the wedding gallery nearby our place had  a promo for raya. i found out about it through a very good friend amy. she and her whole family also had a session there earlier on the same day ( raya pertama). and she posted on her fb that she was having family photo taken there. so i msg her asking about the place and price and the next thing i knew we were there already. that evening of raya sebelum kami tukaq baju.hahahah...

i had my make up done there too and it cost me rm60 only for a simple do. best jugak...and i went to beraya later with that make up afterwards. hehee...tahan pulak tu sampai ke malam...produk apa la amoi tu pakai...

anyway, look at my Maryam..she was all chearful looking kan? and look at the mom and dad lak...kejung! hahahah... actually it was quite a challenge to get this shot ok. they had to
make a lot of noise and put a some toys to attract her..bepeluh okay i menunggu bila laaa nak ok nih...hahhah..yang bapak Maryam asyik2 pejam mata...aduh...letih!

throughout the process Maryam was not in her best mood. she was hungry and grumpy...sian kat dia...

she refused to look at the camera

i think i am quite happy with the outcome because i was so desperate nak ada gambaq cos we didn't have any foto di pagi hari raya tu...sebab was busy with a lot of things. biasa la hari raya kan...plus, i really want to make this as a must event every raya starting now. every raya must go and take picture somewhere... 

who know, this raya bertiga, next raya berempat? hahaha....

Dalam semua gambaq, i guess this one i look like i just had botox...serious...pelik gila muka i dalam ni... overedited rasanya ni...

all the pictures will be hung at our crib later...i actually had a few pictures framed by them as well.. nice jugak.

an over excited mom

My baby is turning 1 year in about 2 months time. and being a person who loves to attend makan2 events i think i would love to throw my baby her very FIRST BIRTHDAY PARTY! InsyaAllah. if everything goes well, we might have her birthday celebration not on November but December la instead. because i would be glued to exam papers doing my usual routine, marking, keying in marks, and all the headaches with my students's affair  la. Zaman la ni i think budak2 exam, pensyarah yang big headaches! hui.. and because of that i don't think i could focus doing the planning or arranging things related to party.. i think December is good time to have a party and ada school holidays some more, so boleh la sepupu2 and kawan2 seangkatan Maryam datang her birthday party sebab mak2 cuti kan. ;)

Back to the story. i am now almost confirmed with the birthday theme and i think i could slowly plan the party kot. remember it took us (the ex-brides) years to plan our wedding kan?? now i am planning for my baby's party pulak...the feeling is...overwhelming kot? hahhaha... biasa lah...bab2 anak ni memang mak2 yang selalu over the top kan...

And for the record NO... i am not throwing a big party. i actually planned to have a very small celebration. just the three of us. Maryam + Mommy + Daddy. i thought of going somewhere for a short trip this end of year but thinking back, i think it would be nice to share our happiness by having at  least a small gathering of children and mothers, eat, chat, camwhore, eat lagi and stuff like that... it doesn't have to be a big party. Cos i really don't have any intention to spend like mad over Maryam's birthday celebration.

Anyways, i have a few themes in mind to begin with. at first i couldn't really decide. i wish i could just ask Maryam what she would like for her birthday celebration. hahaha...

We had ( i mean i had 4 favorite theme of my own that i always saved in my memory.) ok fine, these are basically what i wished for if i were a kid! LOL. 

* Strawberry short cake theme

* Mickey mouse or Baby Minnie theme

* Snow white and the 7 dwarfs theme

 * Rainbow theme

i wish i had the creativity and the budget to realize everything that i wish to have for my girl la..seriously.. i have all the creative imaginations but i am just not as creative to do it all on my own. silap2 jadi benda lain lak..but when i think carefully again, i want to take the effort to do the planning and see how it turns like. and i hope when Maryam grows up she would look at the pictures of her first birthday and happy la... that's the most important thing for me. and i just want everybody to enjoy together with us. pheww....to plan for something enjoying is a challenge nih!

i just hope that i won't get carried away as if i am planning for my own birthday pulak. yang tu haru tu..hahahha...kids should be allowed to be kids. and YES i would let Maryam eat her birthday cake by ignoring the sugar content and such... well, once in a while, no harm kan~ let the kid enjoy.

Anyway, i am just wondering could somebody custom made this flags for me in Penang? i mean i 'd like to have flags with HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARYAM wordings. but i just don't have the idea where can i get it. NO i am not DIYing ok. cos, i'm just horrible at it. hahaha... where hah???

okay what is the theme??? well, should i say here? i still have 2 months and maybe i might change...who knows... ;p

so far, the rainbow theme fascinates me. i mean, i love to see colors during this kind of party. we'll wee how lahh~  wish me good luck! LOL.

all pictures credit to hostess with the mostess site.

Maryam & her sleep pattern

Having a growing  up infant can be a little bit challenging for a first time mom like me. i am not gonna say that for the past almost 10 months of taking care of my child has been all beautiful journey. i love my baby too much but, hell no to the waking up like 2-3 times at nite is a beautiful moment... yeah..my baby still wakes up at least 2 times at nite for her milk time. and NO, not because she is not enough fed. she eats 3 normal meals a day, and frequent snacking in between. still she would be waking  up at nite wanting  for milk. i think it is normal. she is just a baby... ;)

i just envy those mothers who said that their babies from the first day has no problem with sleeping all nite. i'm like,... whattt??? bestnya~ my baby from her first day at home until she turned 3 months ++ would only sleep during the day and spent the whole nite "burning  the  midnite oild" hahahaa... 

as she gets older she switched her sleeping time gradually to nite but i guess her sleep patterns only stable ( i mean, when i could finally adjust to her style) after she turned 7 months. that explains why i am fat! cos i would be munching away at the wee hours. hahahah...

Did i mention that my baby has a very very VERY sensitive auditory sense?? yeah...bunyi sikit pon boleh terjaga. bunyi cicak pon dia jaga. lagi la kalau bunyi TV. sikit pon dah jaga. aduiii....i think she got that from me. i am a person who would be wide awake if i hear something during my sleep. i am alert to any sound even if i'm in a deep sleep. now, Maryam seems to "inherit" that as well. hahaha...

there are times when i consider the lucky times or unlucky times associating to her sleep pattern.

a) Lucky Times

Okay, these are the  most relaxing and happy times when she would wake up at nite to drink her milk and then fall into sleep after she is full. and i could continue with my sleep or whatever things that i need to do while the baby is sleeping. Usually i would sleep or be doing some office works or house chores. (kemas mengemas time pukul 1-2 pagi oi)

Also considered as lucky times because she would only wake up 1 or 2 times only and then back to sleep. legaa...

b) Unlucky times

The most painful things i would say. when she wakes up asking for milk and then starts to crawl and climb around the house and explore everything she feels like to. usually starts at 1 am until around 4-5 am!! and just imagine u have to go to work too the next morning...goshhh.... i have to say that she still does this at least once or twice a month until now. painful~

 there was one occasion when my husband and i had to take Maryam out and drove the car at 3AM just to get her sleep because we ran out of ideas on how to put her to sleep. and it worked!! masuk keta start enjin, jalan tak sampai 2 minit dia pengsan...

Unlucky time number 2 pulak usually occurs almost ever morning when i get up to take my bath and get ready to work and there she is with her eyes wide open going around the house, again! pheww.... usually if my husband is around he would be looking out for Maryam until i finish my bath and dia pulak ambik turn mandi  and get ready for work.

that is IF my husband is around (remember he still has not gotten his tranfer yet). 

but the usual days where only Maryam and i sahaja bedua. imagine that! nak mandi pon sambil bukak pintu tau.sambil menjerit-jerit "Maryam!Maryam! what are you doing??? MARYAMMMM" haaa boleh bayang??

i am not gonna say i am a perfect mom. i have never lost my temper. It is impossible. i did lose my temper and scold my poor baby. and trust me. i would regret that later BIG TIME. and cry later because i scold my baby... kesian kat dia...tak pasai2 mak dia menjerit kat dia.

i guess being away from the husband really takes its toll on me. it is  hard to handle the baby all by myself. and when u are tired after a long day at work all u wish for when u reach home is to rest. but when the unlucky times happens, it is hard not to lose the temper. 

Nowadays, i spend most of my nite at my mother's place and i have to ask my mak's help if i really really has to sleep to take over jaga Maryam at nite. Besalah sangat bila menyusahkan mak sendiri but what to do?

i am an indipendent person. i tak biasa duduk rumah mak i lama2 macam ni since i started working right after finishing my studies... cos i am more comfortable to have my own life or my own place. but since my husband is not with us and i think i could not handle Maryam alone at nite, so i tepaksa tumpang mak i and my rented house now we bayar every month but jarang balik. MEMBAZIR but i guess this is the sacrifice we have to make for some time. at least until my husband and i leave together again. i really hope for that to happen soon. but none of us know when exactly the time. hukhukhuk.... 

as for Maryam sleeping pattern i don't know when will she be sleeping all through the nite like other infants. but i am wondering, betul ka some babies at Maryam's age tidur tak  bangun2 sampai siang???

but one thing for sure, seeing my baby in her sleep is a beautiful and priceless moment. it's the moment when my heart melts and feeling like kissing her without stopping! and usually i would take that opportunity to say sorry i scolded her (with my eyes all teary) and say Mommy Loves You Maryam.... mmmmuahh! a big kiss on her face~

LESS WORDS ON WEDNESDAY

READING is always good... (padahal baca menu makanan saja pun..hahaha)

Do u sing to your baby?

Peliknya kalau jadi mak but never sings to anak...i kinda love this number by Yuna..this is the "lullaby" that i always sing to Maryam... what is/are your favourite song to sing for the lilttle one? Well, aside from the zikir and everything... ;)

Acute Bronchitis

 Maryam was admitted into Putra Medical Center for a week. and i just had to ask for early discharge because of work commitment that is 100% unavoided. i really feel like a terrible mother. and if my baby needs to be re-admit by the end of this week, i redha...

her blood test, urine test, x-tray, all came out NORMAL. Alhamdulillah...

BUT, she was dignosed of acute bronchitis... and yes, she got the infected virus from the nursery....

currently, she still has to repeat the nebulizer sessions as out patient 3 times a day. and i am very nervous to know the result this sunday, whether my baby is doing any better or otherwise.

it breaks my heart to see her sick... and i don't feel like sharing what she went through at the hospital during her treatment...all i could say, i just wish i got sick not her....

*cry*

Bila Mommy Maryam dapat gaji apa dia buat?

SHOPPPPINGGGG!!! which is my favorite excersice. hahahaha... so, last 2 weeks we decided to take Maryam to Mothercare for the first time. usually, i would go there without bringging my baby. but the last time we when, the sales girl actually requested me to bring maryam cos they wanted to meet her!! haaa...friendly dak depa?? hehehhe... actually, i am a regular customer & i know almost every sales assitant there. seriously. ;p. during my pregnancy, i must say almost every 2 weeks i would go to mothercare penang sebab  gurney tu was my favourite hang out with my husaband masa i pregnant. so bila dah pi sana, wajib lah terjah mothercare tanpa motive pun xpa..masuk dan blah... sampai 1 tahap, i masuk just sembang2 dengan the sales assistants saja. heheheheh... so that's how we know the people there aside from being a member of mothercare. ;)

Hasil tawanan kali ni tak lah banyak sebab masa i pi tu, belom ada grand prix sale yg baru2 ni buat tu.  this time around i wanted to buy Maryam some t-shirts & tights. no more skirts or girlish outfits. so we took la 1 set, baju, seluar. then masa nak bayar tu jatuh hati kat leggings yg harga rm9 longgok2 tu, so ambik lah 2 pairs. perasan tak baby tights Maryam is 6-9 months punya? sebab she is a long girl, the one 3-6 months was a bit short. so...that's why...

while i was busy at mothercare, Rizal took Maryam around. and they came back with a sport shoe for Maryam!! adoi... i don't really approve of it actually..but since her daddy bought it, pasrah saja la... no picture of the shoe here. lupa snap. (nampak sungguh tahap tak approve sampai tak amik pun gambaq)

mothercare is well known dengan baju2 yang dijual per set, kan! i love it~

then i walked around guney, i saw 1 booth selling GYMBOREE brands. wahhh rambang mata mak maryam oi... rasa nak angkut semua, tapi apa kan daya.. mak Maryam rakyat biasa... but, i guess beli GYMBOREE nih boleh botak sikit kepala. the green shirt alone had cost me RM59.90.  the other 2 tak yah reveal la the price... rahsia.  *gedik*

later that nite, i was doing my favourite "excersice" - blogshop. then i saw this simple & sweet romper by BABY PLACE. terus tangkap 1. murah ja, RM12 hehhh...

but Maryam is so not a drama queen. ;)

baby tight by Carter.

ohh, apa ni?? well, since Maryam is going to nursery, i was so frustrated with the way they wrote my baby's name on her stuffs. sangat tak kemas & worst part, the spell her name WRONG! so i got the idea to make things look nicer. get a set of sticker with her name on in and paste them all over her stuffs - bottle,tool box,bag,shower cream,etc & sometimes suka2 buat cam lencana sekolah lekat kat baju dia! hahahahha....and it's waterproof too! 

cute isn't it? ;) 1 set consists of 100 stickers. RM12.

see?? this is the sample how the wrote MARYAM's name. rimas tengok

not much different -i still look like a pregnant woman! aisehhh...

haa... ni masa orang sibuk shop for her stuffs, dia sebuk nak poo poo... luckily gurney is well equipped with baby's changing room & feeding room. selesa. lepas berak, minum susu skali...

well, i guess after having a baby, my obsessions towards buying things for myself has subsided. seriously... i dun mind wearing the same baju but i do mind if Maryam wears the same baju many times. and i think all mothers know that SHOPPING FOR THE LIL' ONE IS SOOOOO MUCH FUN! kan!! Also, buying things for ourselves dah jadi perkara terakhir on the list nowadays. dapat gaji ja, semua fikir beli apa2 untuk anak.

most of the time i shop for her unplannedly. Yes, I AM AN IMPULSE BUYER...and a worst one! Rizal would tell me to control my habbits, but can't help it. men won't really understand us kan? hehehhe..

Anyways, this entry is not meant to show off of anything, just to share with others who love shopping for baby. i also love reading other people's review on their shopping items.  ;)

Maryam was spotted wearing Gymboree romper to her 4th month check up. ;) (hahah cam fashion police lak)