Having a growing up infant can be
a little bit challenging for a first time mom like me. i am not gonna say that for the past almost 10 months of taking care of my child has been all beautiful journey. i love my baby too much but, hell no to the waking up like 2-3 times at nite is a beautiful moment... yeah..my baby still wakes up at least 2 times at nite for her milk time. and NO, not because she is not enough fed. she eats 3 normal meals a day, and frequent snacking in between. still she would be waking up at nite wanting for milk. i think it is normal. she is just a baby... ;)
i just envy those mothers who said that their babies from the first day has no problem with sleeping all nite. i'm like,... whattt??? bestnya~ my baby from her first day at home until she turned 3 months ++ would only sleep during the day and spent the whole nite "burning the midnite oild" hahahaa...
as she gets older she switched her sleeping time gradually to nite but i guess her sleep patterns only stable ( i mean, when i could finally adjust to her style) after she turned 7 months. that explains why i am fat! cos i would be munching away at the wee hours. hahahah...
Did i mention that my baby has a very very VERY sensitive auditory sense?? yeah...bunyi sikit pon boleh terjaga. bunyi cicak pon dia jaga. lagi la kalau bunyi TV. sikit pon dah jaga. aduiii....i think she got that from me. i am a person who would be wide awake if i hear something during my sleep. i am alert to any sound even if i'm in a deep sleep. now, Maryam seems to "inherit" that as well. hahaha...
there are times when i consider the lucky times or unlucky times associating to her sleep pattern.
a) Lucky Times
Okay, these are the most relaxing and happy times when she would wake up at nite to drink her milk and then fall into sleep after she is full. and i could continue with my sleep or whatever things that i need to do while the baby is sleeping. Usually i would sleep or be doing some office works or house chores. (kemas mengemas time pukul 1-2 pagi oi)
Also considered as lucky times because she would only wake up 1 or 2 times only and then back to sleep. legaa...
b) Unlucky times
The most painful things i would say. when she wakes up asking for milk and then starts to crawl and climb around the house and explore everything she feels like to. usually starts at 1 am until around 4-5 am!! and just imagine u have to go to work too the next morning...goshhh.... i have to say that she still does this at least once or twice a month until now. painful~
there was one occasion when my husband and i had to take Maryam out and drove the car at 3AM just to get her sleep because we ran out of ideas on how to put her to sleep. and it worked!! masuk keta start enjin, jalan tak sampai 2 minit dia pengsan...
Unlucky time number 2 pulak usually occurs almost ever morning when i get up to take my bath and get ready to work and there she is with her eyes wide open going around the house, again! pheww.... usually if my husband is around he would be looking out for Maryam until i finish my bath and dia pulak ambik turn mandi and get ready for work.
that is IF my husband is around (remember he still has not gotten his tranfer yet).
but the usual days where only Maryam and i sahaja bedua. imagine that! nak mandi pon sambil bukak pintu tau.sambil menjerit-jerit "Maryam!Maryam! what are you doing??? MARYAMMMM" haaa boleh bayang??
i am not gonna say i am a perfect mom. i have never lost my temper. It is impossible. i did lose my temper and scold my poor baby. and trust me. i would regret that later BIG TIME. and cry later because i scold my baby... kesian kat dia...tak pasai2 mak dia menjerit kat dia.
i guess being away from the husband really takes its toll on me. it is hard to handle the baby all by myself. and when u are tired after a long day at work all u wish for when u reach home is to rest. but when the unlucky times happens, it is hard not to lose the temper.
Nowadays, i spend most of my nite at my mother's place and i have to ask my mak's help if i really really has to sleep to take over jaga Maryam at nite. Besalah sangat bila menyusahkan mak sendiri but what to do?
i am an indipendent person. i tak biasa duduk rumah mak i lama2 macam ni since i started working right after finishing my studies... cos i am more comfortable to have my own life or my own place. but since my husband is not with us and i think i could not handle Maryam alone at nite, so i tepaksa tumpang mak i and my rented house now we bayar every month but jarang balik. MEMBAZIR but i guess this is the sacrifice we have to make for some time. at least until my husband and i leave together again. i really hope for that to happen soon. but none of us know when exactly the time. hukhukhuk....
as for Maryam sleeping pattern i don't know when will she be sleeping all through the nite like other infants. but i am wondering, betul ka some babies at Maryam's age tidur tak bangun2 sampai siang???
but one thing for sure, seeing my baby in her sleep is a beautiful and priceless moment. it's the moment when my heart melts and feeling like kissing her without stopping! and usually i would take that opportunity to say sorry i scolded her (with my eyes all teary) and say Mommy Loves You Maryam.... mmmmuahh! a big kiss on her face~