Wednesday, November 30, 2011



Thursday, November 24, 2011

THE BIRTH STORY OF MY lil' Maryam - PART 2 (final episode)


The nurse siap tepuk2 pipi i suruh bangun jangan lena baby dah nak keluar! 

Too bad i really gave up cos i was so damn tired...i told them to help my baby out.(GILA CAM DRAMA)

So, the next step the nurses started to pull out some sort of besi apa tah on my right and left side of the legs and they hanged both of my legs and ikat kat besi tuh...i hanya melihat dengan confused sekali...”apa hal lak depa ni gantung kaki aku lak...” ati berkata-kata dalam mamai2.

Pastu Rizal kata doc suruh nurse pasang “PUMP”  

And the doctor asked me to give it a hard and long push for one last try and i did.

It turned out the doctor had to vacuum  my baby out and with a blink of an eye, out the baby came! 

Phewwww...legaaaa..i saw the baby when the doctor said “ok tengok ni,dah keluar, tengok baby apa ni?” he asked...i just geleng2 kepala cos i couldn’t focus at all..

Straight away saja baby keluar doctor Anuar terus azankan,iqamat and syahadahkan baby i sambil potong tali pusat baby, so efficient! I thought...and he passed the baby to the nurse to clean her up. I could hear the baby screaming... ;)

Then Rizal went off to see the cleaning process and wanted to do the second round of iqamat.

The next thing i remembered, doctor said he would put me to sleep. I guess that followed by process menjahit la kot. nasib baik pengsan,so tak tau la apa jadi masa jahit menjahit tu...wallahualam.

I woke up alone in the labour room. It was dark, i had no idea what was the time. The nurse came to clean me up, put the maternity pad on, change me into clean hospital gown and stuff. And wheeled me into my room. 

Ohh, Rizal was there with a new pair of jeans and shirt. I heran tengok.bila masa dia ni tukar baju? Skang pukui berapa? I asked. Rupanya dah pukul 7.30 pagi....rupanya dah lebeh 3 jam la i pengsan.
As i entered the room, they brought me breakfast and i rested some more.

I am so thankful Rizal was there throughout the entire process and took great care of me. My husband yang angkat i, bawak i ke toilet, help me clean myself, changed my pad, changed my clothes, suap makan, minum, EVERYTHING! He even slept in the hospital with me. Senang keja nurse PMC...heheh...Alhamdulillah...sangat bersyukur ada suami sepertinya.

So, i guess, this is my birthing story..everbody has a different story and experience. I am so thankful sebab i sakit nak melahirkan baby Maryam sekejap saja. Pukul 11.30 malam sakit, pukul 4.38 pagi dah besalin. Alhamdulillah...i tak rasa lama pun.rasa cam semuanya terlalu cepat untuk i.tak sempat nak digest. hahaha..

Macam tak pecaya i dah jadi mak orang! Itu saja yang bole i gambarkan perasaan i sampai hari ni... ;)

Ohh, since a few of our friends  wonder how it feels during the VE or SELUKAN answer is, Alhamdulillah, TIDAK SAKIT AT ALL. ;) i guess when u are in so much pain menahan contractions yang bagai nak patah tulang temulang rasanya, SELUKAN feels nothing to contractions were short but sangat2 memenatkan tahan sakit tu. I couldn’t focus what they actually did during the selukan tu, i saw they put on the hospital glove and gel on their fingers kot,then they would ask my permission to do the VE. They were polite and would do it carefully and gently...bukan main hentam saja ya. Since my doctor lelaki, dia tak buat selukan tu banyak2 kali. Only once. Maybe menjaga adab kesopanan kot. Masa i tengah push, push tu pun he would not look directly to my private part. Dia bediri di sebelah i di hujung kaki.skali skala saja dia akan jenguk ke bawah. ;) sopan kan?? ;)

Masa diseluk tu boleh rasa macam jari depa tu masuk sangat ke dalam. Before nak seluk they would ask u to inhale. Tarik nafas dalam2 and tahan. So kena la ikot instruction tu betul2, insyaAllah tak sakit.

During selukan tu depa akan bagitau la cervik kita dah buka berapa cm and cervik lembut or tidak.if lembut means ok la memang nk besalin la tak lama lagi sbb dia buka dengan baik. If keras, i think time tu la kot kena masuk ubat bagi cervik open properly. 

Alhamdulillah, i had a normal labor without any pain killer, epidural or what-so-ever as i  imagined awal2 dulu. Sebab i imagined the worst situation ever. But it turned out to be an easy situation kot. I mean senang dari segi menanggung kesakitan yang tidak lama. Push pun 30 minutes saja and i gave up. Doctor tak biarkan i lama2 keep pushing maybe sebab i terlalu penat.dia tak mau paksa i.

Everyone will experience different  stages of pain during the labor . some are blessed with easy and fast labor but some are not.  Trust me, even if u have a really long and hard or crazy pain of labor, all worth it when u finally see the baby.

If i can do it, anyone can too. Sebab if semua orang kenal i, i memang takot tersangat2 bab nak beranak ni.heheheh...when the time cames, kita dah tak fikir apa dah...kecuali banyak2 zikir and harap baby cepat keluar saja.apa depa nak buat kt kita, buat pi la...janji semua selamat. ;)


Maryam,day 16 - teman mom pegi KL 2 days ago sebab mom ada keja sikit.

this is her most favourite sleeping position - haihhh..budak2 zaman sekarang...

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


I guess i should also document my birthing story just like everyone else.and today is day 10 already since i gave birth to a beautiful baby girl Maryam Bahyraa. time flies. Yet it feels just like yesterday i was in the labour room trying my best to push out this lil’ girl.

So, here it goes, my birthing story. ;)

For the record, i truly didn’t expect i would deliver baby Maryam that soon, i mean at exactly 37 weeks of my pregnancy. I had some mild contractions since week 35-36 but it normally went away. But i notice a day before Hari Raya Haji, on 5th November, i started feeling so very wayyyyy too uncomfortable and i didn’t know how to describe it. I thought final trimester was supposed to feel like that.i can barely walk but still i refused to stay put at home, we went out for breakfast and lunch and dinner with me feeling very uncomfortable in the belly area. Ok, rasa cam ngilu dan sengal2 kat ari-ari.sangat tak best. Cos it was constant..tapi still gagah jugak bejalan ke sana sini and mengemas rumah sikit2.

Luckily i had an instinct i should quickly finishing arrange my hospital bag. Pecaya tak, my hospital bag was not ready until at week 37 of my pregnancy. Bajet lambat besalin la kunun..hahihhh insaflah wahai diri~~

5th November 2011: evening around 6 pm we left the house in Perlis to go back to in laws place to celebrate the Hari Raya Haji as planned. Nothing happened until late nite i started feeling some hard and frequent contractions at around 12am. But again, i slept with the pain.

6th November : Hari raya Haji. I celebrated by having some rending, ketupat,nasi impit, etc at in-law’s place. And we headed to Penang at 12.00 noon. During the ride to my mak’s place i notice the contaractions were intensed but still manageable. I spoke to the baby telling her mommy still wanted to eat some more and celebrated the eid. Baby could come out after mommy had mee kuah daging kurban. Seriously!! ;p and the pain subsided.heheh... so we arrived at my mak’s place and boyy, i ate like nobody business! Makan sungguh la apa yg ada baham ja! I was tired but with Raya mood i didn’t even rest. Raya sakan la jugak, sembang2 dengan semua orang and my mak’s house was full with people coming for visiting and makan2. So tetamu harus dilayan kan! No rest for me at all. Baring sekejap2 saja but not sleeping or napping.

6th November 2011, nite time: sempat online and checked out you tube on how to deliver a baby. Tetiba gerun trus tukar tengok video kelakar2 and gelak kuat2 bersama Rizal. But dah rasa sangat tak selesa di perut. AGAIN, THE PAIN WAS MANAGEBALE & BEARABLE. : before off to bed i had 1 final round of mee kuah...yummehhh!! and off to bed cos i was really really tired. Dead tired. Panjat la tangga rumah mak slowly masuk bilik with the uncomfortable feelings in  my tummy. I thought because i ate a lot.. *sigh*

11.20pm: nak pejam mata memang dah tak boleh walaupun tersagat penat cos the intensed pain and sakit yang memang kerap. I told Rizal but dia tidoq saja. *bengang*

11.30pm: i tried to get up and walk but it was a little difficult and i could feel the growing pain.and that point Rizal made a decision TO GO BACK TO ALOR STAR!! I was like....err....speechless.  dalam hati, sempat nih tunggu esok but then Rizal insisted we went back just in case. Cos i memang nak besalin dengan doctor Anuar. Tak mau besalin kat orang lain. So, we woke my mak and my sister in law teling them we had to go back.and my sister in law aske wheter i had any bloody show or water bag pecah etc, i said no. TIADA APA2 TANDA EXCEPT INTENSED CONTRACTIONS. And i sempat GELAK-GELAK LAGI TAHAN SAKIT OK!!

7th November 2011 , 12.00 AM: sepanjang perjalanan from Penang- Alor  Star all i could do was baca doa banyak especially zikir nabi yunus memang tak lekang dari mulut and i told Rizal “SAKITTTTTT” Rizal asked “ kita ni nak balik rumah ayah ka pi hospital” i said “esok ja hospital, tak mau orang seluk banyak kali kalau tak besalin jugak” but at the same time dok sakit kuat sangat2. Ntah apa, la i..still tak leh terima kenyataan i actually sakit nak besalin!huhhhh...

1.00 AM: masuk tol Alor Star Kuala Kedah and i knew that  we had to go to hospital! So i arrived at PMC and i didn’t really know the time cos i was having a really bad contractions and i didn’t know what to think and refused to think of anything. All i knew i was in pain and i just want the pain to go away fast!!

VE/SELUKAN PERTAMA:I didn’t even look at the watch and didn’t know what was the time. As soon as we arrived they wheeled me into the emergency room and the on call doctor did the VE and to my surprised, i was 3cm dialated! Oh no....memang sah i kena besalin soon. Dalam hati berkata2. And the doctor said i have to check myself into the hospital already. So i hanya beserah apa yang depa nak buat kat i sebab I WAS TIRED & I NAK TIDOQ!! That was all in my head.

VE/ SELUKAN KEDUA: as soon as i arrived at the labor room the nurse weighed me,amik blood pressure,pasangkan CGT machine and did the  2nd VE and  i was already 3-4cm dialated!! Gilaaaa....cepatnya!! all the nurses said “ni mesti sekejap ja ni sebab cepat sangat bukaan” so they processed me. I macam mamai sikit sebab ngantok. They asked me to change my baju, and then letak ubat bagi berak. Sepantas kilat rasa nak berak, so i went to toilet to empty my bowel. Tengok2  darah belambak2 keluar masa i tengah layan berak! Gerun sikit tengok. Sebab dah lama tak period. Beketul darah keluar.

I went out and told the nurse “darah” and they said takpa2...naik katil and rest, sekejap lagi doctor Anuar sampai. So i did what was told. And tak henti2 zikir nabi yunus and sakit dia sangat2 la tak tau nak cakap. Rasa nak jerit but i knew that was a stupid thing to do.buang energy! So tahan ja...
Rizal sempat amik gambar and i felt like throwing the camera!! Eeeeeee....

VE/ SELUKAN KETIGA: the nurse came and said i was 6-7cm. And i asked Rizal what was the time, he said, “3 lebeh. AM that is” and i took the time to nap sekejap sambil menahan sakit.

VE/SELUKAN KEEMPAT : DOCTOR ANUAR SUDAH SAMPAI....ohh he looked handsome with jeans & t-shirt i thought. And he did the VE. Masa ni dah tak heran laa apa nk jadi, malu semua dah ilang! Adehhh...ohh, he said “ ok dah 8 cm, sikit saja lagi tahan ok. Sabar ya..tahan sikit saja lagi” exactly i rememebered that. And i angguk2 saja. And i think it was like 10 minutes later i told the nurse i sakit rasa nak berak!

VE/SELUKAN TERAKHIR: the nurse did it and YES!! 9cm...sangat cepat!! I started to push was 4AM sebab Rizal bagitahu. ;) so i push!push!push! tak keluar....and i told them i tak reti push...the nurse assited me, as well as Rizal. I terkagum sikit sebab my husband pandai betul bagitau i cara2 dia...hahahaha..but all the hard pushes were not successful! L sakittttttttt tu ja i  rasa. Then nurses letak apa tah buang air kencing i.adehhhh...macam-macam hal laaa.

Then after a while Doc Anuar came with his Phua Chu Khang boot. And i didn’t know what he did, all i did was trying my hardest to push the baby out and failed miserably! I think it took 30 minutes to feel the baby macam dh kat bawah sangat2 and sikit saja lagi nk tekeluar but i told them i was so tired! Tak boleh lagi dah...but everybody was cheering me on! Macam cheerleeders besama pom-pom...semua jerit “SIKIT SAJA LAGI...SIKIT SAJA LAGI...PUSHHHHHH!” 


to be continued...


hospital tag is cool than a gold bangle. ;p

Friday, November 11, 2011


TIME: 4:38 AM

Currently baby Maryam is not feeling so well. her jaundice was quite high yesterday, it was at 257 and we decided to send her to KPJ Specialist Hospital, Penang. lucklily the hospital is nearby, so i will go and visit her every 3-4 hours to send her my milk and breast feed her...hopefully she will do a lot better today, Amin. i miss her already...

Get Well Soon Baby Girl!

Maryam Bahyraa, Day 2.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

i have safely delivered my baby ya'll~

Alhamdulillah,praised to Allah The All Mighty, on 11 Zulhijjah 1432, early morning on Monday at 4.38 am, November 7th, 2011... my baby girl had decided to see the world. everything went so fast, too fast in fact, and there borned a little girl. till now i can't believe she's mine. Syukur Alhamdulillah...i cannot be more thankful to Allah for this biggest gift ever...

i promise more updates coming up later... ;)

much love,

Saturday, November 5, 2011


i am still in Perlis and i guess Rizal and i saja yang tinggal kat blok W2-3.1 nih...jadi pak guard and minah guard! ehehehe...

we are still busy doing house chores since after subuh. doing the laundy (a lot,huhhh!) and i just finished packing my clothes to send back to penang ( stock baju masa berpantang nanti) and surprisingly, my lugage sebijik ja.maknanya tak banyak baju sangat la bawak balik.

mom's bag & baby's bag- image kurang memuaskan cos captured from lappy and straight away uploaded into blog. ;p

and finally i have successfully packing my hospital bag and baby bag to load into the car today.hehhh..orang lain awal lagi dh selesai benda ni, i baru tekedek-kedek packing my bag. baby's bag actually was packed earlier a few weeks ago by my mak.hahahah...nampak sangat i ni suka buat keja last minute, or i memang slow or i malas? hahahah...nak pack my back pun jenuh Rizal habaq banyak kali baru la i buat.tu pun berjam sebab sambil pack barang sambil fesbuk! eheheheh...


nanti la kalau rajin i will let people know what are insede these two bags.insyaAllah..but overall, i think they are pretty much the same with other hospital bags kot.just that i separate my stuffs with baby's stuffs in two different bags. ;)

Rizal and i are headed to Alor Staq to celebrate raya haji ni with his parents first and tomorrow after lunch we're going back to Penang. YEAYYY~

To all Muslims, i would like to wish each and everyone a very HAPPY AIDILADHA, hope that everyone will arrive home safely...sacrifices come in many ways and often it is hard to sacrifice.
 May Allah Bless Us All. Amin...

p.s: tak boleh la telan daging sangat rasanya, nanti darah naik lagi... ;(

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Pregnancy Week 37

Finally, is my last day at work.

tata my office...

tata my table...

i shall see u again in February 2012, InsyaAllah...

And soon i will be preoccupied with these stuffs...heheh...

p/s: dalam hati penuh debaran..dup dap, dup dap...
p.p./s: okeh, tak tau nak tulis apa lagi...papai!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

i might be going into labor next week at WEEK 37!

Yeah! that's what the doctor has suggested us during last sunday's check up. oh no~ suddenly i am not ready cos i have always set in my mind that the due date is on the 23rd.November not earlier. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME EXACTLY?? well, my blood pressure seems to get higher every time we when for check up. it has sky rocketed to 150 last week. so the doctor said that if it continues to get higher or the maintain at 150, i need to be induced for early delivery. OH NO I AM SO NOT READY TO BE FORCED INTO LABOUR~HELPPPPPPPP~

I guess this is the thing what people always say " we can only plan, but Allah will determine everything"

So, when i found that that maybe this is the final week for me to carry this tummy, i kinda freaked out a bit, especially last nite. after a day of digesting the fact i will have to give birth most probbaly next tuesday, i cried a lttle bit. I AM SCARED, what to expect kan?? especially when it comes to things like this when u are forced to give birth. what if something bad, something really bad happens during that time?? will my baby be fine?i keep thinking of that. next week the baby will be 37 weeks. on the bright side, at 37 weeks a baby is considered as full term baby as the doctor said and it's ready to see the world, inyaAllah the baby will be strong enough. Amin.

i dunno what to think cos currently i am buried with exam papers, still marking and keying in the marks of my students' final. i am supposed to be resting at home by now, but i cannot. i am a bit disappointed when i was told to finish marking the papers, and key in the marks before i go off. agak terkilan when i said the word I NEED TO REST, apparently, some people cannot fully comprehend the word REST. instead, giving me option to be at home and mark the papers and come back to office to send them when i am done! WHATTTT?????! then what's the used of having the special time table for preggers??? they went trought the trouble of creating a new set of time table just in case i need to go to labour earlier. BUT I CANNOT USE THAT NOW FOR MY BENEFIT. i am again, a little bit diappointed. what if i gave birth today?? how can i come back to office?? sooo weird~

So yesterday, after a brief discussion, i went back to my table, i sat down and gave it a deep thought. i decided to complete all the marking and key in. Alhamdulillah, im almost finished with one more class to go. i think i can start keying the mark in the system this evening..Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me the strenghts to continue doing my works till the end without troubling or should i say, BURDENING any of my co-workers. but, i terasa hati sikit lah, sebab, when it comes to my turn, this kind of thing happened.

It's ok tak dapat rehat awal sikit tak pa la...i have always believed that kalau kita mempermudahkan orang lain, insyaAllah, Allah akan mempermudahkan kita pulak in return. so i better get over it! quickly finish my work and i can start resting at least for a few days before going into "battle" i mean, labour. heheh...

my current state of mind right now is 50% thinking of my work, and another half is thinking about my condition and my baby inside. i hope my blood pressure will subside a lttle bit. but i guess it's almost impossible when i keep going on about it in my head. i need to relax and redha, kan?? kerja memang penat otak, tapi semua orang penat otak jugak, bukan i sorang. Also, next week baby dah cukup matang untuk tengok dunia. i kena fikir macam tu. TAWAKAL to Allah of what i have to face nect week. cukuplah Allah sebagai tempat bergantung, kan! ;)

i should be more excited rather that scared cos i will soon meet my first born! that is the biggest achievement in a woman's life, right? not all women are blessed with pregnancy, birthing, and baby...i should be grateful of going though these dispite the circumstances. Alhamdulillah, i am almost there. almost complete my pregnancy journey. ;)

So, to all friends, please pray for me, i am still scared okay. ;-( i hope eveything will be ok. Amin.

Dear Allah,
Please help me, please help my baby, Amin.

sekian, nanti update lagi ya!

aci tak, nak baby keluar muka camni? huhu~