Wednesday, February 19, 2014

our own place finally.

Alhamdulillah, my small family has already moved into our own house last December 2013. life feels a lot settled at the moment. Walaupun we all moved in dengan serba kekurangan but Alhamdulillah, Allah S.W.T selalu mecukupkan segala kekurangan yang dirasai. we all pindah dalam keadaan yang sangat stressed out. sebab tuan rumah tak nak let go the rental house to a new family..dengan rumah sendiri yang tak siap, kami ni angkut jugak lah barang2 masuk rumah sendiri and we were stationed at my mak's house for almost a month until we finally moved completely into our own house which was on December, hujung-hujung dah pon. and we were amongst the first batch yang masuk menghuni ke taman tu...was quite ok actually walau at that time ada 4 ja family di lorong kami. 

stress sebernya berpindah randah nih..ditambah dengan i tengah nak mengadap final exam bagi kelas Master i lagi at that time..serabut rasa...Alhamdulillah...lega sangat..now i'm in my 2nd semester..and my first class for this semester dah mula semalam... *happy*

ni lah lorong i duduk...heheh..umah mana satu?? nun di hujung sana...segan nak tunjuk..tak buat apa2 major renovation pun...we did kitchen cabinet and  pasang grilles saja..no plaster ceiling and such. sebab we had problem with leaking pipe the minute we entered the house. so because of that, risau gila nak plaster the ceiling walau hati  melonjak riang dengan design2 plaster ceiling in the market. hahaha...we have fixed the major problem with piping and we thought, at this moment kitorang should just wait for the next 6 months to a year first.see how it goes first. nak tahu rumah tu ada masalah besar ke tak elok duduk dulu..no major renovation yet. kalau bajet besar takpa, cam kami ni bajet sangat limited. so kalau jadi apa...remuk hati kot nak cari bajet lain to fix the problem.huii~


so the kitchen is ready...and seriously baru terasa lengkap dan selesa main masak2 di dapur sendiri...macam2 resepi dah try so far..hahahhaa...i think having a kitchen kinda motivates me to start cooking and learn how to cook decent meals...

so, that's about it...short update on what's happening in my life right now...actually banyak drama nak pindah umah ni...but malas nak type.hehe..

till then, i hope to write again soon.

Maryam is now learning to ride a big girl's bike~ ;p

Friday, February 14, 2014

BAHANA FACEBOOK


Asslamualaikum & Hello all, (ada ka pembaca blog nih?huhi)

okay i know i have neglecting this blog for way too long that i expected..and the term busy almost sounds like a lame excuse already...i miss miss miss my blog. i miss having something to write about about. but yeah, thruthfully, setiap kali i cuba nak menaip, rasa keletihan di badan mengatasi segalanya..kadang-kadang keletihan otak yang tak mampu memproses lagi data2 dalam kepala untuk ditulis di blog. hahhaa...

Tentiba, hari ni agak lapang semantara menunggu masa untuk masuk ke kelas pukul 10 pagi nanti. hehh....Memandangkankan hari ni hari Jumaat, hari yang mulia. Penghulu segala hari, so i think, eloklak i memulakan semula tulis-tulisan serba sedikit di tahun 2014 ni. dan masuk pertengahan Februari 2014 pon... baru nak blogging. ;p

Hari yang mulia ni i ambik kesempatan ni untuk menulis apa yang i observe serba sedikit di dunia internet especially alam fACEBOOK. Don't get me wrong here, tak semestinya apa yang i cuba sampaikan di sini ada kena mengena dengan diri i...namun hakikatnya, apa yg i perhatikan di fACEBOOK boleh terjadi kepada sesiapa sahaja actually. this is just based on my limited observation ya. which is kinda bothering me. agak mengganggu. that's all i'm saying,

fACEBOOK sebagai medium kita untuk berhubungan dengan dunia luar, adakala lumrah menjadi medium melontar pendapat dan perasaan manusia. that's normal..we totally get it why certain people love to express certain feelings on fACEBOOK.

Namun, sedarkah kita dalam setiap kata2 yang kita lontarkan di status field kita, ada beratus orang yang mungkin orang luar yang tidak tahu apa2 sedang membaca dan menilai?? pernahkah kita berhenti sejenak, sebelum menekan butang 'post'? berfikir, perlu atau tidak disuarakan?

Siapa orang-orang dalam senarai "FFRIEND LIST"?? sahabat? kawan biasa? kawan baru? ibu bapa? kakak kita? abang kita? adik kita?SAUDARA MARA KITA??? saudara dekat saudara jauh kita???

ini yang aku (nah jah...sekali keluar perkataan "aku" di sini. emosi lah kau jah. hahaha) i mean apa yang i kata sometimes can be quite bothering. i tolong translate = sesuatu yang menjadi agak menggangu. mengaggu dari segi apa? emosi insan lain maksud i.

Berihati-hatilah kita melontakan apa sahaja pendapat dan kita setiap hari TAK KIRA DI MANA PUN. kerana yang mendengar atau membaca pasti menilai. mungkin kita ada secara sengaja atau tidak, telah menjatuhkan air muka orang lain. mungkin secara tak sengaja.

contoh, please read and understand makna CONTOH ye. Contoh situasi yang i cuba paparkan di sini:-

kita dengan penuh emosi dan amarah mengadu hal secara terbuka di fACEBOOK, dan secara tak langsung "menjemput" kawan-kawan di dalam friendlist kita untuk turut sama melontarkan pendapat/komen berkaitan isu ipar duai kita. which is A VERY SENSITIVE ISSUE bagi i. pernahkah kita berhenti sejenak berfikir apa perasaan kakak atau abang atau adik kandung kita yang ada ikatan sah dengan ipar duai kita tersebut?

Apa yang kakak atau abang atau adik kandung kita rasakan bila isteri atau suaminya di perli, diberi komen yang negatif oleh orang-orang luar yang tidak tahu apa-apa??? pernahkah kita terfikir secara tidak langsung kita telah melukai hati dan perasaan kakak atau abang atau adik kita?

 Lupakan ipar duai kita. ipar duai memang terkadang tak sama caranya dengan cara kita mahupun keluarga kita. sebab itu kita sentiasa ada isu dengan mereka di belakang kita. tapi bukan semua ipar duai adalah the type of in laws from hell...Alhamdulillah i dikurniakan ipar duai yang sangat pengasih dan penyanyang. dan disayangi semua. Alhamdulillah.

okay sambung isu yang tadi tu...hmm, fikirlah apa perasaan saudara kandung kita yang ada ikatan sah dengan ipar duai kita. mungkin bila mereka ini membaca isteri atau suami mereka dikata sebegitu rupa. atau dikomen secara negatif di belakang...*sigh* isn't that awful?

dan mungkin dengan perbuatan kita akan mengeruhkan lagi hubungan sesama keluarga. bukan mungkin tapi pasti. inikah yang kita inginkan?ketidakharmonian dalam keluarga mereka dan dalam keluarga kita senidri? Malulah kita mendedahkan pekung kepada orang luar yang tak memahami apa2. kita kira mereka faham...tapi sejauh mana ya?

hati-hati, mungkin dengan perkataan kita, akan meruntuhkan masjid yang susah payah mereka bina itu. hati-hati, dengan perkataan kita yang kita kira tak ada apa, akan memutuskan silaturrahim sesama keluarga. dengan perkataan kita, hati insan itu akan terguris selamanya. dosa kita sesama kita Allah tidak boleh ampunkan, hanya manusia sahaja boleh memaafkan. apa jadi jika kita tidak dimaafkan? tersekatlah syurga walau kita sudah di hadapan pintunya nanti. Wallahualam.

jadikan 2014 kita lebih bermakna

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Monday, November 11, 2013

and...She's a 2 years old kid!































Alhamdulillah... that's all i can say. my baby girl is now 2 years old last 7th November 2013. i have so many things to say about her but so poor at arranging all the things i have inside my mind to write them in a beutiful writing to commemorate the mark of her second year of life.

my only wish is that she will continue to be healthy and happy, as always. i am so grateful to Allah S.W.T. for granting me a very healthy and active lil' girl. and that is all that matter to me right now. she's an end year baby so in terms of her milestone developement i can say more or less the same with the awal tahun kids...she's learning to speak, she's learning to do things on her own right now. her own identity is developing. loves to run, dance and sing although i can't really understand what song is she singging...just make my heart blooms. Alhamdulillah...

other than that, she's just a normal kid. quite shy with strangers, and would try to copy what the adults around her do...so that's makes me very coutious most of th time.

talk about a party this year, unfortunately we don't celebrate. but we had a small family dinner with a slice of ice cream cake for her (whice she didn't even finish) just for the 3 of us and it went well. we 're currently very busy with preparing to move into our own house soon,in 3 weeks time. so, Insha Allah, if ada rezeki, we definetely do a small party for her there at the new place.So sorry Maryam, mommy has no plan to do any party for you as mommy is quite busy with a lot of stuffs. i am sure u don't mind. ;) hehehe...

Maryam mommy lovesss you so much..it's beyond words. i am so proud of you now and forever. May Allah S.W.T protect you and guide you all the time baby. Amiin.


lots of sweet love,
Mom.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

gonna be two soon...




budak bakal umur 2 tahun tak lama lagi.



yeah..how time flies...perkataan atau ayat cliche. :)my girl is gonna be 2 years old in november.

last year we had a celebration of her 1st birthday..but this year, we have made a decision not to have any party because a lot of things.

1) we are moving to our new/own house by this coming november or december, insayAllah. which i think orang yang biasa pindah randah ni faham how complicated it can be and soooo many things too look into. a lot of attentions to details is given to our future home this year. the renovation parts and so on.so, i don't think it is a good time to think of having a birthday party in between. boleh pengsan i...semua benda nak buat.

2) i think that this year it would be more meaningful to have a small celebration just us-the family and a cake.

3) i am busy. hahahha..tak sempat nak pikir...

so basically this year we are more focussed on the moving into our house rather than having a party. apart from that, i am also studying part timely, and i couldn't find a perfect time to squueze a party event into my schedule. so Maryam, when u grow up, and happen to read this blog, i hope u understand why mommy can't plan your party this year. heheheh... mom is too busy with other things. sorry baby.

ohh, talking about Maryam Bahyraa....she is a busy kid. as always...asal buka mata ada saja benda dia nak buat. huuu...letih... her latest obsession is BARNEY..we showed her a few other DVD, but it seems that Barney is her favourite of all. asal bangun tidoq mintak tengok barney. 24 hours barney sajalah rumah i. sampai i sendiri dh boleh hafal lagu2 barney. and yeah, she is also learning a thing or two with barney nowadays i guess. she is building a lot of vocabularies especially in english. i only speak english at work place. not really using at home. i rarely use engslih, i think my husband uses more english with Maryam than i do. dunno why...i guess i am just tired to speak english at home after a long day at work or at my MA class kot.hahahah boleh?? but, Alhamdulillah...Maryam picks up this language quite easily i must say. maybe because of the effect she gets from all the english tv shows an DVD she watches kot. but the downside of it, she "mix and match" her languge with BM too. skali imbas i pening dengar bahasa dia yang tak seberapa tu... sebab masih tak pandai bercakap lagi but we know she undertstands things in english.

she won't understand "kucing" but she understand "cat" she won't undestand "keluar" but understand "out" she won't undertand "satu" but "one' but she understand "lima" but not "five" hahahah...you know all the simple words...mostly she understand them in english version rather than BM. so it is kind of annoying sometime when i have to repeat my sentences using some english or BM words that she understands just to get her response. i think mak2 yang practice dwi-bahasa ni kat rumah mesti paham apa kebenda i bagitau ni. hahah..so, kallau nak pakai english, u better use englsih only. never mix the two languages or else u get a kid like that. hahaha...and if u want to use english...just make sure u are using the correct form. not the broken english..kalau tak kesian anak...

apa pun, she is at learning phase...learning to understand the world kan..and she just thinks that everything revolves around her only. she is matter the most than anyonelse besides her...hahaha..selfish gitu!

now, birthday plan yang ada?? i just ordered a BARNEY CAKE. tu ja laa..just to make her happy. i think she is the happiest when she watches barney and sees barney in books,in toys store,etc..so senang2 order saja la kek barney kat budak tu kan...and we plan to go for makan2 and follow by cake cutting after that and go home sleep. hahahah...

ohh, my baby is growing so fast...i miss her being a baby. ;)



Tuesday, September 24, 2013

when u are on your own- expect the unexpected.

ini dalam kelas statistics. busy key in the SPSS data hoi!



"world" can be a scary place when you have to face it ALONE. i admit that the day i went to register myself again as a student was a day full of mixed emotions. i kept questioning myself whether i could do this on my own. no friends this time around. no one could back me up.

but i kept a positive thinking and moved on despite the fact i was disappointed with a friend i considered a very good one whom decided not to proceed her with her studies at the very last minute without any reason but kept quiet. which was really strange of her to be that silent.

again, a world can be a scary place when you have to face it ALONE.

but Alhamdulillah, Allah has eased everything so far. He sent me 3 good friends. and i must say that to find friend who instantly clicked with u is not easy but lt's not in my case. hahaha...i have 3 crazy Masters buddies now. we are inseparable. it's like we have known each other a long time.

now, group assignments are done by us 4 in a group. and i learn a lot from these geniuses. Alhamdulillah. the best thing about the day i go to my classes are always full with lots of laughter. seriously when i think back, i have not been laughing so hard for quite sometime. rasa macam zaman blajar degree muda2 dulu..macam zaman remaja pulak. padahal dh mak2 dh pun. we are of the same age 29-30 yrs. so, i guess that makes us bond quite well kot.


i never expected i would always be looking forward for my classes excitedly every week like this. i think that the days i go to my classes are the days that i truly feel enjoy about what i am currently committed to. full of laugh. stress is always there but when u have great buddies, stress is something u can handle effectively.


ohh i love my master class. rugi sangat pada yang dapat tapi tolak macam tu saja without any solid reason. why apply in the first place if u are going to waste and harm other people's chances?? i wish i could display how interesting tha classes are to these people who rejected to come. pity u just wasted a real good place and other people's place who have been rejected by the uni. shame on u!



i hope these two people could bear with me and pray for my succes too. :)

Friday, September 6, 2013

Welcoming ceremony for the postgraduate candidates.

the line up of the deans

so my journey as a student has officially began as off yesterday. we had to attend the Welcoming Ceremony where we were introduced to the management of the University. i had a blast meeting my new classmates. hahaha...it's always nice meeting new people for me. i love the experience every time. but one major thing i noticed after yerterday's event, while we were listening to the briefing and speeches from the dean and the  USM Deputy Canselor, the experience sort of strenghten my will to continue this journey with an open heart. it makes me stop thinking of " whether i could or could not" commit. Alhamdulillah... i think i have not taken the wrong turn, Insya Allah. meeting people who have the same objective as yours makes you feel stronger and positive kot. i met a classmate who just delivered her first child last months and she is from Kuala Kangsar. she shared her feelings towards her decision to continue her studies despites having a baby and a job, just make me feel so blessed. i think this kind of woman is by far stronger than myself. so, i find peace thinking of it.


tengah bediri nak nyanyi.hehehe

so yesterday's event ended with a positive thoughts in mind. jumpa pulak kawan2 yang sekepala memang bonus kan. one thing is that when you are a postgraduate candidates your sense of team work is stronger kot. we feel that we are equal. have the same objective. the same commitments (work, family, etc) and have to attend  class in the evening. hehehe...so semua orang memahami situasi masing-masing. insyaAllah rasa tak laa sorang2..semua sedia membantu gitu. heheh...



the oath
when i saw all the deans walk into the hall, my god..i miss the robe and go up on the stage to grab  your scroll again. dulu i panggil robe tu baju harry potter... seeing these people wearing the robe, and when they were introduced as Professors or Associate Professors, huiii... meremang bulu roma. to all the friends who left university years ago, i only got 1 question to ask. "DON'T YOU MISS THE MOMENTS OF YOUR CONVOCATION DAY?" or the very least, "DON'T YOU MISS YOUR UNIVERSITY?"

So, next monday is going to be my first day of going back attending lecture and stuffs after almost 6 years of working, which i really look forward to.May Allah S.W.T guide my path all the way to the end. Amin.