weeeeeeekEND!

how fast time flies..tomorrow is already weekend..hmm,..it'll be another boring saturday & sunday for me. being alone in the house,sleep all i want,..glue my face to the TV all day,ohh..i need to mop the floor...gosh! i wish i won't have to be alone anymore...i have stayed in that house all by myself since i first started working here..and the idea of staying on my own seemed so cool at first but recently i'm beginning to re-evaluate the idea...and i'm actually felling so damn lonely...if i think about it i cry...

i want to fill my time by doing lotsa things so i won't be thinking how pathetic it is to be alone with nobody around...but the place that i'm currently located is very remote and small...there's nothing much i can do here..i want to go back to penang every week but then again,..how could i start saving if i go back a lot..hmm,..i wish i could meet him every weekend but that is impossible also...sedeynyaaaa...but i know how to spend my weekend tomorrow...marking my students' assignments!! yikessss....

anyways, have a great weekend my friends!

DIFFERENT?? how??

i went to class in the spirit of teaching my students...somehow i'm quite worried about them esspecially the final semester students... i have 154 final sem students under my wings this time around...well, u know lah kan final sem students are definitely older then the rest and there are a few who are much much older than i am...yang dah kahwin pun ada..hmm...well, i entered their class and did my job...while i was going around the class there was one student slowly whispered " Miss, why uhh u look different??" and i smiled and said, " well, i gained 100 kg! stop asking and do your work" and he kept asking "no..no..Miss did u get married over the weekend?" and right at that moment i said...NO i did not...and why u asking?? he said " Miss u look different...macam darah manis tu" i just smiled and walked away...

well, i'm not sure what it means by the term "darah manis" (sweet blood) cos apparently it never crosssed my brain cell before... but all i know is that it refers to the person that just got engaged kot... i dun't understand it cos for me the term was widely used in the olden days but still, is it still relevant today?? when i got back to work last tuesday, a few of my office mates kept teasing me and still keep teasing me until this morning about darah manis thingy...i mean, do i look any different??? i don't feel different at all...honestly i don't ok..my blood is not the sweet type but it's actually type B positive lahh...adoi!

hmm,.. i guess i'm not used to the new me just yet.. only when many of my friends keep giving me the full of meaning's smlie then only i realise i better get used to the title... i mean i still call him my boyfriend not fiance and i feel a bit funny to call him fiance...hahah...we're still 2 individuals yang sama...nothing much different... and ohh, i think that student was not the only one asked me wheter i got married last weekend or not but many of my previous students that i bumped into kept asking the same thing.. i mean what the heck...i thought i was really quite about my engagement but apparently,..the news spread even amongst students too..hahah...i thought nobody gave a damn about it...but they did...hahah.. rasa macam disayangi pulak bila orang amik tahu tentang kita,kan!! *wink*

apa pun kan...i feel so happy now..happy sangat..Alhamdulilah...TQ to all of friends who wrote me a lot of personal message on my facebook and the well wishes and all,..i really appreciate that ok..

yours truly,
norr~

Leisure Affair

yesterday was the first time me and my BFF Anna went out since she gave birth to a sweet baby boy awish...we have been waiting for our "date" cos everytime we planned to go out there was always something came up.. i free anna busy and bila she free i was not pulak..so yesterday before i came back here, we decided to go out jap and did the cathing up...her baby was sooooo baik and never a grumpy boy at all...sweet sangat... and one thing that struck me was that ,how much things have changed... we used to go out melepak like this all the time during our university years also masa sekolah2...syok gila lah..but now looking back, those were the days kan...skang ni we all have different agendas and commitments... but sekali sekala dapat keluar macam ni best jugak tapi tak boleh jalan banyak sgt la..just lepak2 and makan2 and talk...it's different now,.. a good kind of different i mean...dulu bawak sling bag ala2 remaja tapi skang beg sampai 2 dia bawak..susu anak,pampers and stuffs..so cute...she kept saying that my time will come and i better be ready for it..haha..anyways,..i'm so glad that we still maintain our friendship up until now and though we won't be able to go out all the time...i'm happy to have her as my bestest friend! Anna, nnt roger aku k..let's hang out some more and bring baby awish along...xoxo

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The Engagement Day, 24 October 2009

yes!! i'm officially engaged to him... all i could say is that i feel so blessed & relieved that everything went well... malas la nak cita panjang lebar... layan ja la these pics.. insyaAllah the full version will be ready in hard copy by next month..i'm soooo sorry to all of you my friends who have been asking me to put them on my blog so that you guys could view but, i'd like to maintain my privecy a little bit lah... nanti boleh tengok yg printed version dlam album ya!! hihi..but meanwhile, layan ja la apa yang ada... :p

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Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

wo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh oh ( by Beyonce : Single Lady)

well these lyrics seem to be on my head since i woke up today...hahah...well folks! it's getting near.. a few more days to go and i'm officially hold a title as someone's fiance..hihi... so far, i have recieved a word of advice from a really good office mate..she said that i should never keep it a secret about my engagement cos it's inappropriate sebab kak lin kata,.. in our religion it's a sin if kita ganggu tunang orang.. well not that i have always been disturbed by a lot of men here.. tapi ada la sikit cita lama yang quite amusing and i don't intend to share it here...and of couse recently there is a friend whom i know for a short period of time, suddently poured all his isi hati towards me and u can imagine i was shocked and speechless...i didn't know how to respond but at the same time i wanted that person to feel comfortable and it was okay to let it al out...hmm, i pretty satisfied of the way i handled the situation and kept my cool...i had to explain to that person that i'm single but not available...and though, i think i will lost the friendship with that person, yet again... i just hope that the friendship will never ends... tak pa lah...cemana pun kan..janji kita hepi!! ( macam lirik lagu Amy Mastura tu...)
*wink*

i'm off to Penang today after work...i still have 2 days to prepare everything that i should for the day...hukhukhuk...sabar2...semuanya akan okay...

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as much as i want to avoid discussing about my engagement, i just can't divert my mind of this topic especially when the count down up here shows that it's getting nearer every day and i can feel it already... i know i'm not perfect and i know i cannot be selfish... but how i wish i could have my engagement day like what i have in mind rite now but all these dreams of having a beautiful engagement day remains a dream...there's so much to do if i were to follow my plan but unfortunately, time constraining as well as budget contraining... i just keep myself calm and just hope that the day will be okay... though i won't be able to have my dream dress, my dream hantaran design, my dream mini pelamin, my dream engagement favor, my dream...my dream..my dream... they just some random thoughts that rule my mind sometimes and i tend to be upset thinking of not having all of my dreams...

i just want to get over with it already and move on by focussing on what i want to achieve for our wedding next... we have to work hard so that we get all that we want, rite! these days, we take matters in own hand.. and cannot be too dependent on others too much..and money is always the obsticle for many peole... but i don't want to blame money as the big issue for not achiving my goal cos i believe there's so many ways to overcome that aspect...i do not want to be a bride that relies 100% on my future husband to finance our wedding on his own.. and i definitely do not want to trouble anybody from my family also... so, i really have to plan the wedding as best as i can so that i can have my dream wedding...i want to have my dream wedding...i want it so bad if i give guys the gory details of it u might puke!! but i would like to make it clear that i do not have a dream of a lavish & extravagant wedding cos it's not me...i just want it to be beautiful..that's all

to my good friends Anna & CT i really appreciate your calming words and advise...i really need those!

LEGA

well, i have been worried sick through out the weekend about too many things to do but there's only little time... last week n this week are considered very hectic week for most of us... for a start we had internal audit to finish until this thursday..i'm one of the internal auditor and also auditee at the same time...memang tak adil..dh la kena pi audit jabatan lain tp at the same time i pun kena audit gak..so tension gila la..but Alhamdulillah, all my worries were a waste of my precious time!!! DUHHHH... our jabatan dh pun selesai di audit and i was so grateful i managed to handle the job that was passed to me... and i just arrived back to my office just a few minutes ago after i finished my 4 hours class i straight away went to audit our unit teknologi maklumat with another internal auditor...i was so relieved that we managed to clear our task cos i'm gonna be on leave starting this thursday...penat gila hari ni...luckily masa audit tadi diorang jamu air..hihi...thought of asking kuih raya ada lagi ka tak...

i'm so very busy with classes and it's already towards the end of semester...so definitely banyak benda nak buat...rasa tak menang tangan...datelines after datelines and piles and piles of work load...arghhhhh...doremon help!!!

yet, i consider today is quite a good day cos i thought i was gonna be in mess...but everything seems to fall into place...lega sangat!

owh,. i just check my status as pembayar PTPTN wheter i'm under their blacklister or not...i thought i am 1 of the blacklistered person apparently, I AM NOT! yayyyy... i was worried about PTPTN especially i have missed my payment quite some time...biasa lah kita ni baru ja keja lagi gaji pun bukan la banyak macam org yg keja 5 tahun ke atas kan...so kadang2 sesak jugak la...owh, i found out about the site yg nak check PTPTN ni though reading another blogger blog...we all kinda gave comments about PTPTN ni, takot if they nak pegi bercuti or honeymoon luar negar takot lak tak lepas... i must admit i'm a little over paranoid jugak..sampai tahap nak pi bkt.kayu hitam pun takot kena tahan..hihi..

LEGA sgt hari ni walaupun it's still noon but everything seems to be ok compared to my original thought..i thought my day today was gonna be lintang pukang cos i have too many things to do..but, Alhamdulillah...so far 50% of what i wanted to accomplish today dh pun selesai dgn cepatnya with the help of few individuals... to aini, thanks cos share handouts for topic terakhir budak2 final sem...n to kak yam, tq cos making the audit session easy...and handled it like a PRO!!